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Im so sorry that I didnt see this thread. I just now wrote something that I think would fit. I'll see if I can cut/paste it and put it in here in this thread
*** this probably doesnt fit here, since its a personal experience, but I left it here anyway*** ( I can probably delete it if needed)
Ok, well, here goes.
m new here. I actually found this site when I was looking for "white nurses clogs". I googled that phrase and a journal from this site came up. ( Im going back to work soon, after being home for 4 yrs and am nervous about it, so while i was here, I posted in the OR section, if anyone has any tips, feel free to share them there on my thread. thanks)
Anyway, here goes
long story short, my mother was given 6 months (Ca).
she was NOT religious woman, in fact, she sort of made fun of people who were devout.
well, it had been 5 days since she was released from the hospital, to go home and etc.....
she wasnt ale to walk so she was in bed.
well, that day, she was very lucid and making perfect sense. I was waiting for a delivery (pain meds) from the pharmacy and worried that she would be in pain. she wasnt complaining. she was very clear headed. I was in the other room when she screamed for me to "get in here this minute". when I went into he room, she insisted that I "get rid of that man right now" (she was very angry. she went on to tell me that he refused to leave and she wouldnt have a strange man in her room. there was no one in there. she was sooo insistant and so clear headed that I actually thought that someone has maybe broken in, knowing we had strong pain meds in the house etc etc
well, this went on and on all day long, and each time that I went into her room, she was having a definate conversation with someone?? she actually seemed to be listenning and would stop and them respond "no, Im not going anywhere, I dont know you and you dont tell me what to do anyway"
I was actually getting scared because she seemd so insistent and coherant.
Ok, so the end of the day, she tells my sister that "this man here is telling me that if I go with him, I wont be in pain anymore" ( she had metastatic breast ca). then she calls me in and say to me, "here take this, its a check for your borthday and I want you to have it" (my birthday was the next day). that week she had been given 6 months and I told her that she could give it to me herself tomorrow.
So, went to bed.
when we went in her room the next morning, she was gone.
I am STILL trying to make sense of what went on that last day and I dont have an explanation.
Has anyone ever heard of anything like this happenning before?
I still dont know what to make of it.
ps I am not crazy, cross my heart