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Help! I have extreme compassion fatigue - page 2

I took a Compassion Fatigue assessment and I scored off the the charts for both burnout and compassion fatigue. I'm a young new nurse about a year out of nursing school and I haven been on the ob... Read More

  1. Visit  Orion81 profile page
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    Quote from Blue Roses
    I saw my PCP today. She and I decided together to try 10mg Lexapro once a day. She also said it would be helpful to see the counselor from the employee assistance program also.
    I'm so glad for you. Lexapro is what I take as well. The only time I have a problem is when I forget to take it for days on end, then yikes.... major mood swings. Good luck to you, keep us posted if you like
  2. Visit  Blue Roses profile page
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    I go back into work tonight for the first time since I called in and went to the ER. All day I've been laying in bed swallowing down my fear. I keep telling myself "NO" when I start to feel the fear overcome me. I keep saying to myself I won't let it overtake me, not now, not with my job on the line. I CAN'T not go in to work tonight.
    I haven't taken the Lexapro yet, I wanted to wait until I have some days off to take it the first time because I don't know how it will effect me.
    I now have two job interviews lined up on Wednesday afternoon. I am going to aim for a higher paying but part time day job if I can so I can try and focus on getting myself healthy. My parents have stepped up to help me; they are going to help pay for my wedding therefore making dropping down to part time possible. My fiance has also been very supportive. I worry though that someday he will get tired of dealing with my emotional problems.
    I just pray I can get through tonight and tomorrow night at work. Every minute seems to drag by. It threatens to make me lose control.
  3. Visit  Altra profile page
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    Thinking of you, Blue Roses ...
  4. Visit  VivaLasViejas profile page
    #16 2
    Okay Blue, the first thing you have to do is BREEEEEEEATHE..........Your anxiety is palpable, I can sense that your thoughts and fears are tumbling wildly like squirrels in a cage, and there is no way you can make good decisions in that state of mind.

    Believe me, I've been in your NurseMates; some years ago I suffered a very humiliating and unforgettable breakdown after trying to ignore the common-sense part of my brain that had been begging me to quit my hospital job for over a year. I'd thought I was tougher, thought I could endure....but there was a point of no return, and I was already so overwhelmed with anxiety that it was almost anticlimactic when I reached it. One day I walked onto the floor, and suddenly a small but very sure voice whispered in my ear: "You're done. You will never work another shift on this floor." I proceeded to my nurse-manager's office and completely lost it---sobbing hysterically and crying "Ican'tdothisIcan'tdothisIcan'tdothis" over and over as she hugged me and tried to calm me down.

    You sound like you're about thisclose to a similar scenario. Now, a nurse's career can and does recover from episodes like this, and although my situation was somewhat complicated by my then-undiagnosed manic/depressive illness, I was able to resuscitate my own career and go on to bigger and better things eventually. I tell you this story because I don't want you to have to go through what I did---you need to walk away before you blow. Your body is giving you signals that should be serving as a warning to "git while the gittin's good".

    By the way, you'll want to start the Lexapro soon, because it takes weeks to build up to a therapeutic level and you won't feel many of beneficial effects right away.

    Wishing you all the best. Please take care of yourself---if you don't, who will?
  5. Visit  Blue Roses profile page
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    It's strange how much my identity can change in just a few weeks. I feel like half the person I used to be. I am not this perfect image of a person people see me as and it hurts. I feel sad most of the time. The side effects of the Lexapro make it extremely hard to take. I feel empty inside. I went to a job shadow opprotunity at another hospital in town and I had a panic attack there too. I feel like there is no way out of how I am feeling. I don't understand, I am seeking help and trying to do everything right but I feel worse now than I did before. I'm going to have to drop down to part time despite the money issues. I really need to get myself healthy again.