I have been a CNA in my current workplace for 6 years (LTC). I have been out of nursing school for 5 months, and I just started working in the same place as an LVN on the 14th of this month.
I always knew it was going to be hard, but I had no idea it was going to be this hard, Considering my largest med pass was for 8 patients in a LTC. Now I have about 22. That is hard enough. My morning med passes take me about 4 hours sometimes more, then noon med pass takes me about 2-3 hours, and evening takes me about 3-4 hours. thats almost my entire shift!!! and I have to get treatments, accuchecks and charting in there somewhere, and if an emergency comes up . . . . UGH.
I am still on orientation, so another nurse will usually help if need be, but it always seems as if I always forget something, or screw something up.
I really feel that my being there, trying to figure out the routine, is screwing up everyone else's routine. The residents get mad because things aren't running on time, I can tell that other staff members are annoyed because I'd forget something or be behind on something. I've worked a total of 5 complete shifts, and I already feel like this was not worth all the schooling and everything I went through and sacrificed to go to school.
To make matters worse, certain people are going out of their way to make this extra hard for me. Certain CNA's that I have worked side by side with over the years. It really brings me down to be standing around the corner and I hear talk of what a lousy nurse I am, how I am going to fail miserably, and how they are not going to listen to anything I tell them to do.
I constantly feel like crying, and I feel so sick to my stomach by the end of the day. The sad thing is there is nowhere else around here for me to work, and I do want to stay. I do have many friends . . . but not as many as I had there before. I want to stay at that place because I practically grew up there, I know everyone, and I want to stay around the few people left who still support me.
How should I handle all this???:icon_roll