Nursing is a challenging enough job, even when you know that you know it is what you want to do. I’ll be honest; when I started nursing undergraduate, I wasn’t sure that I even wanted to be a nurse. My mom and my grandma were nurses, and I knew that I didn’t want to do the type of nursing they did...
But I knew that I loved and adored science and healthcare in general. Medicine and the science of the human body fascinated me. I knew I didn’t want the lifestyle of a physician, PT and OT weren’t medical enough for me...so even though I didn’t know exactly where I wanted to be in healthcare, I knew I wanted to be on the front lines. Nursing ended up a default because I knew the variety was endless and if I wanted to leave the bedside, there were dozens of advanced practice options.
I hated nursing school. All of it. I freaked that I had made a mistake. I graduated with my BSN and got my RN at 21. Over time, I moved around and found areas that I liked and that worked for certain periods of my life. When I got bored, I moved on to a new specialty. The variety in nursing is exactly why I love it.
That being said, while I didn’t like the nursing program, I loved my prereqs. Chemistry, microbiology, calculus, statistics, psychology and abnormal psychology, A&P, pharmacology...I adored all of them. And while I didn’t enjoy nursing school, I liked what I saw that actual practicing nurses did, and that kept me going.
I think hating the preqs is significant. I think feeling like you have a rock in your throat even thinking about nursing is significant. And I think that you already know the answer to your question. You don’t want to be a nurse.
Please listen to your gut. School is time consuming and expensive. Time and money that you could spend pursuing something you like and that doesn’t make you feel like suffocating.
While I don’t subscribe to the theory that nursing is a “calling”, I don’t think that you will be able to be remotely content, let alone happy, in something just because the pay is reasonable and the schedule can be flexible. Because sometime the schedule does suck (weekend requirements, starting on night shift, working part of every holiday, taking call, mandatory overtime or “back up shifts”, etc.). Some people would not call that a flexible schedule.
Nursing is a demanding job, and while I don’t think you have to love it, I do think that you have to find it at least interesting.
I think it’s better to cut bait early. Forget family. They can’t live your life for you...you are the one that will have to wake up every day and do the job, not them.