You know what, I'm sure that almost all of us have those thoughts at least once in their course of study. I have 2 little ones (4 and 8) and they always complain that I don't do things with them anymore. During finals I had to leave them at my mom's for a week and I felt so guilty about it but I didn't want to waste the time and effort put into it by ruining my studying by having them around. When I cheat from my study time, it is not to watch TV or go shopping, not even to go to the gym, I cheat my study time by playing with them which sometimes makes me feel like a terrible mommy. One thing that many people who have older children tell me all the time is that as much as it seems like they (my kids) need me now, it's nothing compared to how much they will need me when they are teenagers--emotionally, mentally and financially. Which is one thing that keeps me focused. If I finish soon, I will have all that to give to them when they need it most.
Another thing that is wonderful about you being in school at this point in time, is that your daughter probably sees you as her idol and mentor and to see her mother so focused on something could inspire her to follow your determination. Like if she comes across something difficult in life, she will tackle it and not quit.
I know you feel like quitting but you really really have to hang in there. I know that only a rare few enjoy how they feel during nursing school. Believe me, I know what you mean about starting to feel normal again. I just found my floor after months of letting laundry and dirt pile up on it. And I get really frustrated with mess, but it's one of the sacrifices that I had to make. I can totally relate with the stress. Towards finals week, I went in to the emergency clinic with serious stomach pain and found out that my stress & anxiety have taken a physical toll and I am now the proud owner of ulcers and gastritis--never had stomach problems before in my life! We will all make sacrifices, physical, emotional and mental sacrifices that will make the reward of finishing this so worthwhile.
It won't be much longer where you will be putting on your scrubs
and heading to work, working less days than you go to school, making good money and not having homework to do--which means more family time.
Please don't give up now. Unless you have realized that the nursing field
is not right for you, then stick it through and you will be so glad you did. Envision the future, stay focused and keep positive. You can and will make it through this.