I've pretty much been a lifelong, bad student.
I was always
day-dreaming, like I couldn't focus for more than a few minutes before I would unknowingly be in dreamland and would discover that 15 minutes later, and then the cycle would repeat. Because I had such poor attention skills in the classroom, I easily got overwhelmed with homework and studying so for the most part, I just outright didn't do it.
I pushed myself in high school, at least the first two years, and got As in advanced courses and my sophomore year, for the first time in my life, got all As and one B (in math...). My last two years I just got sick of high school and hated it with my essence, so my grades began slacking again. In college, I didn't know what I wanted to do so I had no motivation... Plus, depression and anxiety started kicking back in so I just didn't have it in me to try. I failed most of my second semester courses. I also got officially diagnosed as autistic and ADD several months ago, at the age of 21, so that might explain a lot of it. Had I gotten the diagnosis as a child, I could've gotten the help I needed and perhaps my teachers would've been more understanding.
I took two years off from college, and now I'm back, part-time, trying to become a CNA as my first step into a career in nursing. It's nearing the end, and I have an A+ in my class, and believe that my nursing instructors have respect for me, at least to some degree.
I owe it all to my family and my husband, who believe in my capabilities and have constantly supported me, even though I would deny my intelligence and cognitive abilities everyday. I know they got sick of it at times, but also I think they were happy to support me.
I've gotten better at "taking matters into my own hands"- not complaining anymore, knowing that it's up to me to take control of my future, and to have confidence in knowing that I'll either get it or I won't, and if I don't, then I have the confidence to know that I'll for d*mn sure find a way and make myself get it. Next month my husband and I are moving across the country, and I'll have like 3 pre-req classes left to take and a TEAS exam until I can apply for nursing school
. I'm so excited!!! I just gotta remember to keep my butt in line and study.