I have been lurking on these boards a long time, but this is my first post. I just had to jump in on this one. My heart hurts for you. I, too, lost my mom this last year..2006. (Dad died in 1997) She had a massive stroke in January. I am the primary caregiver and POA. With rehab and appts, and just loving care, I was also doing my prereqs. Then, in August, after all that recovery and hard work, she had another one that left her in a coma until she died a few days later. This was exactly 1 week before fall semester with Micro and A&P II. (I also have 2 kids, but they are both school age, which helps.)
I didn't think I would be able to concentrate. (2 lab classes) I was going to drop my classes, at least microbiology, but with my sister's encouragement and mom in my heart, I didn't. I did let my instructors know that I may not be up to par, but I was doing my best. It was VERY HARD for me to CONCENTRATE really for the whole semester. I have a little anxiety/ocd kind of thing that kicks in when I get stressed anyway. I ended up getting B's in both classes, which really messes up my 4.0 GPA, but I was just happy to have done it.
Looking back, I needed school to distract me from all the other stuff going on in my life with mom's affairs and my own grief. I am going to be thinking of my mom so much with all we do in nursing school. I have already had much more to contribute in my classes. It will all remind me of her and what we've gone through. When I graduate, I will be so sad that she doesn't see me graduate. She, too, was my encouragement and motivation for nursing school. What a shame they won't see us graduate. You are so much closer though than I am. Bless your heart! With tear filled eyes for you, me and other posters, God bless you!
P.S. After all that, I guess I didn't really have any advice to offer, just an experience to share. I know that It helped me to read of others going through losses and how they coped. Also, you are so close to being finished with school. You just hang in there and pass. Remember C=RN Don't push yourself to be perfect. I had to accept some grades throughout the semester that I was otherwise ashamed of and had never had before, but I got B's and it wasn't so bad. It was a good semester. You may surprise yourself at what you can do. You will carry your mom with you in your heart the whole way. Good luck with the child care issues. I know that is no simple issue either.
OH my gosh! what a long post....bet your all glad I don't post often.