This may be a bit long, but I have no one to talk to and if I don't say how I am feeling, what's going on... I am going to need psychiatric care.
So I graduated in 2003, with my BScN. I had done my fourth year preceptorship on a general surgery floor. I interviewed for a job at the same hospital & during the interview the DON verbally guaranteed me a position on the surgery floor. When it came time for my job offer, she said that she was making me a med-surg float, who would be doing primarily medical. I mentioned how she had guaranteed me surgery floor, and she told me I "needed to step out of my comfort zone" and if I "didn't aceept med-surg float, I could do hospital float but they would staff me primarily on medical floor."
I was fresh out of school. Not very assertive, so I accepted the job. I was on medical floor all the time, had a lenghty orientation (I'll give them that) and proceded to work there for 10 months. The reason I decided to leave was because it was quite physical & I had an injury from 3rd year nursing school
(roatator cuff tendonitis) that meds, physio, cortisone shots, etc...couldn't seem to touch. I had gone to the DON to see if any opportunities existed in Peds, or elsewhere in the hospital for me, and she said " I don't know what jobs we have. I am not going to find out for you. If you don't like medical floor, feel free to seek employment elsewhere." Just in case anybody is wondering, I am a competent nurse, who has always recived positive comments from supervisors & cow-workers.
Anyway, I accepted a maternity leave in Community Addictions (took a leave of absense form my medical postion). This job was good (easy on the head & the body), the only drawback was a supervisor that was truly psychotic (no one can stand working for her & eventually quits, except these 2 nurses who have been there forever & have learned to just do their thing). My whole goal at Addictions was to find a job that was "non-physical" or "less physical" to try & really heal my shoulder.
10 months into the position, I apllied for a job at a Psych Hospital in Geriatirc Psychiatry. In my job interview
, they told me that the RN's team led, did assessments, family conferneces, rounds with doctors, etc...I specifically asked if the did any physical work & was told "no." I went so far as to say "If you were to offer me a position & there is any physical work involved, please don't offer it to me because I am injured & I can't do it."
I am sure you can imagine where this is going. I get on the unit & surprise, RN's team lead 1/2 the time, the other 1/2 the time, thay have a patient load & do patient care (many bed patients, lots of physical work). I went to my patient care coordinator & she said "oh no dear, there is lots of physical work on this unit, I don't know why they ever would have told you that."
Anyway, I decided to give it a try. It was physical at times, but we had a really good staff & I didn't want to keep shifting jobs & I decided to give it 2 years & then re-evaluate.
I was 1 1/2 years into it, when a job on the Adult unit came up for a year temporary. I figured I would apply & get a break form the physical. I was offered the job in early July. I was not allowed to start it until late Septemeber & was informed of this in a note. The reason was "There are lots of casual nurses working over the summer & we want you to have a good orientation." They decided to give me a lone orientation day in August, and lo & behold, the RN orientating me is a casual. I ask if I can have a 2nd orientation day (to at least have 2 in a row) and they say no. Reason they say no is because I have to orientate a casual RN on the geri-psych unit, not to team leading, but to patient cares.
So I start to think of relocating & going up North (I live in Canada). My fiance & I look into this & I interview for a job in a small community hospital in a remote area. I accept this position verbally & receive the job description yesterday & letter of offer to sign. Based on the job description, I will be in way over my head. Meanwhile, I am on the new unit at work after having had 2 orientation shifts for nights (by a casual of course). I am calling in sick the past few days because my orientation was not good or sufficient & I truly feel unsafe. They won't give me any more orientation because I am leaving, which I understand.
Guys, I just don't know what to do. Do I send back my letter of offer signed & move 6000km away as planned & give my new scary, overwhelming, probably quite physical job a chance? I have been crying all morning because I feel so overwhlemed by everything. Do I not sign the job offer (even though everything is set in motion for the move & we are slotted to leave in less than 3 weeks). I should mention my fiance has secured a job which he is absolutley pumped about. I really need some advice, or a kind word.
Thanks for listening.