No patience yesterday, now I feel like crap

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It was my 3rd day working as a contract for a small, but busy hospital.

It was a 12 hour shift, and I was on my feet for 10 hours, the other 2 hours remaining I sat down from time to time to chart.

I had 13 Pt's when I came on, but then had 2 discharges in the late morning, which left me with 11 by the end of the day. One CNA, and just me. Things probably would have been fine had I had more help with the discharges. The paperwork was a disaster, but I made it and so did the Pt's that got to go home. They went home a little later than they hoped, but they were understanding.

Yes, I called another nurse for help, and she came to help.....2 hours after I called her.

Anyhow, by the time my shift had ended, and the next nurse was sitting there ready for report, I was still passing meds to 2 people. Of course, the med passes on all of these pt's was phenomenal. That morning alone, I must have passed at least 100 pills. Probably 60 for my last med pass. The dinner time meds were suppose to be done being passed by 17:30, and I was still passing them at 18:10, but sorry, I don't consider that to be too bad...and the nurse that I was to give report to wasn't upset.

The reason why I was runing late wasn't b/c I was not organized...it was b/c many of the patients want me to "do this, do that, go get me this, I have to use the restroom." I am normally very apathetic, and I always "treat others like how I would want to be treated," but by the time my shift was ending, and I was still not done yet, and had another nurse waiting for report....I became very frustrated with one patient. God love her, she's 93 years old, and HOH, but very sharp. I gave her the dinner time meds, and she took them. She then told me that she needed fresh water b/c her water tastes stale. I told her I will be back with it, and when I returned, she started to tell me more stuff that she needed...I walked out as she was still talking, and I heard her say "Hey, don't you leave."

But, I did. :crying2: At the time, I was so upset by how my day went, that I just wanted to get done with my already late med pass, give report and go home (home is 1.5 hours away). I feel so badly that I am going to go to confess it to a priest. If someone walked away from my grandmother, I would be livid. I did it to someone elses grandmother. :crying2: :crying2:

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I am amazed places do get away with staffing like this. I would not want to be a patient in one of them.

Hello! I understand your guilty feelings, we've all been there. We all need to remember that we are only one person and we can only humanly do so much. We are not super-hero nurses that so many patients seem to think we are. Don't beat yourself up over that terrible shift. Unfortunately I'm sure it wasn't your first, and I know it won't be your last! The fact that your still thinking about it means you're a caring person, seriously!!!

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I think walking out on her was maybe better than losing patience and saying something to her that you might regret even more? When you go back, perhaps you could take her a flower or some other little thing to make up for it.

Certainly sounds like the place is dangerously understaffed, but I know nothing about Med-Surg.

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holy smokes - I worked Med-Surg in a small rural hospital (90 beds) and we did "Team Nursing" - each team had 1 RN, 1 LPN & 1 CNA for a team of 10 people - I couldn't even imagine working in your situation. I've said this in other threads - I work in paradise compared to some of you......

Bless your heart for feeling guilty! At least you had time to do for that lady what you did (I think replacing water that tasted "stale" was above and beyond the call of duty) and she wasn't exactly coding or anything......

In my neck of the woods (Northern Michigan) the rural hospitals can be pretty busy - at the one I referenced earlier in this post, we had a 5 or 6 bed ICU, an OB that did 300-some deliveries a year and an ER that was usually rockin' - the reasons why depended on what time of year it was (snowmobilers, skiers, hunters, summer tourists, National Guard people too acute for their infirmary - plus we had a medium security prison and a camp for young offenders in the area) - they are great learning environments!!

Good luck to you!!!! I hope all goes well at this assignment!

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