Yep, welcome to my first day..and well first 9 months! Now grantid, I had a lot of technical experience going in...so much of the technical issues I could handle or I had the confidence in doing or actually...looking up in my hospitals 'standard of practice for RN' book that most provide (a standard manual for hospital policies and procedures that most hospital floors have...trick is, finding someone that knows where it is...and guaging by the amount of dust on it..how long ago it was updated..LOL!) Lucky for me it was updated, just took some time to find!
But the nurses really honestly ate me alive! They assumed I was some young upstart with a tude going in thinking I smelled like roses and farted glitter! Umm couldn't have been further from the truth! I was so eager to FINALLY work with real nurses with experience and learn what it is really like!!!!! I was very dissapointed with them, and started doing things on my own as I did in nursing school
, kept up studies at home from my school books, and took it all head on by myself! That got noticed and in a few months they accepted me and started even asking me questions..which I did answer for them (I was better than to give them the same bs they gave me and I knew it!).
After nine months of thankless running around doing things on my own without a team, seeing my patients were better off than most because I really focused all my energy on them and not gossip, dissing others, arguing with other nurses, or complaining about how horrible my work and life was...I found I was constantly swimming upstream to do it all...so I was about to leave. I wound up leaving one fine day when a DON I didn't even know accused me of things I had NEVER done, or patients I had never worked with...I asked her if she had the right employee folder...well, the yelling at me ensued and I left after my shift that night! That was the straw that broke the camels back!
Get this..I have now seen 4 out of the 7 nurses I worked with there in totally different positions and companies complaining about the same things I did! WOW, if we had just talked about it in some open forum, we all could have worked on change and kept our jobs and not burned bridges or felt like you had to 'diss' your other nurses for fear they would do it to you first! Such a shame...and a waste of spirit and time!
If you are not comfortable, continue to gain as much from the job as you can, but seek new employment opportunities. You will find many of these probelms are common, but during interviews ask to speak IN PRIVATE to another nurse that has been there for a while and really get the skinny! Be very careful of vague job descriptions and ask many questions of interest to you during your interviews! Try as hard as you can to judge or gauge potential probelms, and BE HONEST with yourself. If you have a red flag going off in your head and don't know why about a particular job...trust it and move on or really figure it out and whether you can comprimise on those issues. I find being honest with yourself is your best defense!
Good luck to you!!!!!!