Hello - I have a question and wanted to seek any opinions in this matter. Let me start by saying I am more than anything a canine loving person. I do not have any children, my dh has 3 from a previous marriage and I love them, but never gave birth. The younger 2 boys live with us full time and have for over 4 years.
I got my first puppy when I was in maybe 4th grade or so. He was beautiful, just one that someone abandoned. That dog was really one of the most positive aspects of my childhood. He was hit by a car and died at the vet's office not long before I graduated from high school. I took it very hard - my dad still remembers that and told my 2 ds about it.
So after this dog passed away, I waited until I was 22 before I thought about getting another one. Another little mixed breed. "Sam" was also very sweet, and saw me through 2 bad marriages and divorces. He was a 1/2 cocker spaniel, 1/2 g. retriever, and was healthy for the most part. He got arthritis and ended up paralyzed from the waist back and I had to have him put to sleep. It was the hardest decision I have ever been forced to make. I couldn't even give the vet the ok to do it. She called me on my cell phone after he had only been there less than 1 hour, and it just really surprised me. I had to get the vet call my dh to talk to him about it. He died 1 month before his 16th bday. I had him cremated and he sits in a beautiful urn on my dresser.
Brfore Sam died, I did have bouts of HTN, but controlled for the most part on Clonidine po. Sam died in August, and within 2 months, I started having CP and runs of vtach and bigeminy as well as labile HTN. The symptoms were insidious, they didn't just all hit me at once. At first, I just thought I wasn't dealing with it. My PCP dx me also with panic attacks, usually waking me in a cold sweat in the middle of the night with HR up over 150bpm, and having to change the sheets and my pjs. I did see a therapist after he died, but just not really how much it helped.
I did get another puppy, a mini daschund named Sissie after I lost Sam. I does seem like she has helped ease some of the stress and guilt from losing him. Sissie turned 2 in July.
Before I lost Sam, I never had any cardiac dx, no arrythmias, or anything like that.My BP went from being "a littler high" to being as high as 240/160 and taking enough BP meds to choke a horse. I take more meds than my dm and dd combined, and they are in their 70s.
I know about psychosomatics and depression leading to worsening conditions. I just wasn't sure if there were any basis for something like this. I've been in the ER on more than 1 occasion with my HR 150 to 180, and getting converted back to a sinus rhythym with IVP meds. I don't like to think I am a hypocondriac. I know that depression can play havoc on one's physical health. And, I know to some people, a dog is just "a dog", but Sam was there for me for 16 years and I did not have any children.
Don't want to think I'm crazy or anything, just wanted to throw this out there and get some opinions. Any opinions and suggestions welcome. I know it's long and boring, but thanks for reading it.
Anne, RNC :paw::paw::paw: :saint: