I feel that I may have made an error in judgement and made myself look incompetent to my supervisors. In the interest of not stirring up any drama at work, I want to post the situation here in order to gain insight about what you all think.
I am new to the ICU, but not a new nurse.
I took care of a patient going through ETOH withdrawal. This was my second day of having the patient. The patient was originally admitted to a step-down unit, but later transferred to ICU with uncontrolled withdrawal symptoms.
The patient slept through most of the first day. I titrated the sedative drip down. Towards night shift, the patient became less groggy. The next nurse kept the sedative drip on the same level overnight. The next day, I knew that the MD would want the patient transferred back to the floor (no other medical issues requiring ICU care). I decided to stop the sedative drip and begin giving Ativan, so that I could give the MD an accurate picture of how the patient would tolerate the Ativan. The patient was cooperative and nonviolent but restless and impulsive when awake. The patient was in a vest restraint.
The MD came in that afternoon and as I suspected, wanted the patient transferred back to step-down. I shared my concerns with the MD that I felt that the patient may require higher levels of Ativan than are safe to give outside the ICU. The MD saw the patient awake, restless, but also A & O x 3. I decided while waiting for a room assignment to give the patient the max dose of Ativan our protocol allows just to see if that would help the patient stay calm. I gave the patient the max PO dose three times in the next three hours, but it didn't help the patient's restlessness. The patient had now learned how to un-snap the vest restraint!
I called report to the step-down RN and I was honest in my report (i.e. patient is able to unsnap vest restraint despite receiving the max dose of Ativan). Immediately after speaking to me, the receiving RN called my charge and protested the assignment, stating that she felt the patient was too high of a fall risk to come to step-down. (BTW, my charge nurse and my assistant supervisor were already aware of the situation). I paged the MD and had him come down again to re-assess the patient and see if he still felt that the patient was stable to go to step-down. At that time, the MD saw the patient again attempting to remove the vest restraint and get out of bed. I informed the MD that the patient had receivied the max dosage of Ativan for the past 3 hours. The patient was still A & O x 3. The MD stated that he still wanted the patient to transfer to step-down. We placed wrist restraints so the patient could not unsnap the vest restraint.
I did end up transferring the patient, but the situation became a mess. The charge RN of the step-down unit made some angry comments to me when I was transferring the patient. The receiving RN paged her nurse manager, my nurse manager, my nurse educator, and the MD to have a meeting about the appropriateness of the patient being transferred to step-down. (The patient was not transferred back to ICU). My nurse educator spoke to me afterwards and said that a patient receiving such high doses of Ativan should never leave the ICU. She called it a "learning experience" for me. I felt like she was frustrated with me. I have never had any issues with my educator before; she has always been supportive.
It has been several days but I am still upset over the situation. I am a sensitive person and I do not feel confident about being in the ICU already. Now, I feel that I have a target on my back and that my supervisors will not trust me to make good decisions. I am angry because I feel that I was talked down to by my nursing educator. As I said, I am not a new nurse. There is no protocol at my hospital for when a patient receiving high doses of Ativan can or can not leave the ICU. It is entirely MD judgement. I know that there are risks to giving large doses of any sedative, but I felt that I did all I could by sharing my concerns with the MD and having him come back and re-assess the patient. Theoretically I could have refused the MD order, but I was not 100% convinced that the patient needed ICU care. Even though it was against my better judgement, I followed the MD order.
Thank you to anyone who read this long and winding post. All comments or suggestions are appreciated.
LaurenBoog