Quote from christie_0307
I'm writing this because i'm feeling like i'm holding on to a thread.
I've been out of work for 2 months already which is even worse to say that I have only graduated in may and just started my new job in september and hurt my back in november. I was in a car accident in 2002 and had a weak back ever since. I'm only 22. Im a ward nurse however i injured my back while I was brushing my teeth and coughed. The immediate pain sent me falling to the ground unable to get up. I herniated a disc and tore the disc membrane.
my friends I've grown up with dont understand the pain that I go through.
Everyday I find it hard to tie my shoes, or even get out of the car. Every week I feel like there's hope, because I've been able to do a new activity such as do the dishes with not as much pain as the week before, only to discover an hour after doing it I start to feel the pain all over again. I feel like I'm driving my boyfriend crazy w/ all the emotional and physical attention I need, even though he is such a compasionate RN. Some days my motivation just to get out of bed is non existant... But almost everyday I hate feeling so dependent, out of control and down right sad. I have been slowly getting better, but the days like today when the pain catches me off guard I start to feel like I just can't take it anymore.
I know there's got to be lots of stories nurses have on back injury.. if so please share. Not only how you congured it, but sharing the feelings, thoughts and hardships that you went through would really help me feel like I'm not the only crazy person experiencing these hard times!
I feel your pain and understand exactly what it's like to live with an injury and people not understanding what you're going through.
I injured my back about 18 months ago. I was at work and was putting my scrub pants on in the change room when it happened, I could not move at all. I went to ED, had an MRI and I have an L4-L5 disc bulge an d L5-S1 disc bulge with an annular tear. I got through this with medication but my injury was exacerbated 6 months ago. I was left working for well over an hour before I could be relieved and go to ED. When I returned three days later with a note to say 'light duties' they ignored it because it wasn't written on a workcover form. Um excuse me? I was given so much morphine in ED (ended up throwing up) that it could have been written on toilet paper for all I cared. I was told that I had to scrub for 4 lap choles for that day and not to 'feel persecuted'. I told them that as they cannot provide a safe working environment I am leaving right now. I rang the director and threatened the department with legal action over breach of duty of care and an unsafe working environment. I went through workcover again and had to have PT which helped. However, the emotional pain of being treated poorly by the department the day of my injury, and my return has completely taken the goodwill from me. I no longer do overtime, extra shifts or anything else to help them out and I've made that very clear to management.
I know that my back is never going to be the same again. I can't play certain sport, I'm depressed and I can feel the pain in my back all the time and find it hard to bend down and do the simplest of things. I know that it's only a matter of time before I end up with another injury but I just don't know what to do.My friends and family don't understand what it is like for me. Just today, my cousin asked me to pick up her 18 month old toddler before he fell off the table. I had to say no I can't lift him. Her and her mother looked at me like I was being difficult or something and despite explaining to them about my injury (which they know about) all I got from them was that I had to do something about it and get it fixed etc. I told them that I am doing something about it which is not lifting things that I don't have to (seriously it's your kid, not mine I'm not risking my back because you can't control your kid climbing on everything) and I go to the gym to strengthen my abdominal muscles.
People often say to me that they are tired of hearing nurses go on about their back injury all the time. Well from my experience you have to remind people again and again because they just expect you to lift all the time. We have this 'no lift policy' at work. What a joke.