(I know it's long but I am in need of help..badly! Please bear with me!)
This is how I feel about nursing right now:
I am currently graduating from UCLA with a B.A. in Psych (I graduate in June)
(I can't tell ya'll how happy I am about that!).
Anyhow, I was pre-med until about the Fall of last year. I decided that perhaps nursing was a better option for me. Now I am wondering...
I intially wanted to go into medicine b/c I had alot of experience being around that sort of thing and it really fascinated me. My brother, who was three at the time (March 1982), fell in our backyard pool and was underwater for 15 mintues before anyone found him. He was severly brain-damaged and was in a coma, but survived. My mother couldn't bear the thought of letting her son go (taking him off life support) and so we took him home and for then next 18 years of his life, he lived, albeit not in the best of conditions. We were always in and out of Stanford and Good Sam and such b/c of his many surgeries etc. I helped take care of my brother until he passed in July of 2000 at the age of 21.
My entire life I knew I wanted to be in medicine because of my brother. I was pre-med and then really started thinking about my options. I would like to have a family someday, I don't want to be in debt forever, I don't have the pre-req's required for med school (which would be a 1 year post-bach program of condensed Physics, Chem, O Chem, Bio, and Calculus), the thought of the MCAT terrifes me...these are a few of the reasons I decided to opt out of med school and go INTO nursing. Many people I have talked to believe in me and think it is a good decision. Recently, however, I have been doubting myself (something I, unfortunately, do often). My sister won't get off my case and always finds a way to bring up the question of "Tell me again why you are doing nursing instead of going to med school?" though I have explained it MANY times. (She's in law school and I think is one of those kinds of people that believe nurses are ' below' doctors and therefore, less desirable a profession, etc. etc. The other night, though, she asked me AGAIN. I was brought to tears thinking. "Did I in fact NOT make the right decsion?" And now, reading some fo the posts on here, I feel discouraged.
The one post about "Would you do it again?" and many answered "No".
The post about NP's salaries (I want to be an NP) and many of the figures were shocking--thinking about what NP's do.
The hours (mostly 6 am- 6pm). Part of the reason I wanted to do nursing is b/c people said I would be able to pick my own hours, etc. and so that way I could raise my family, instead of be at work all day!
Also, I shadowed an ACNP in Neuro (the specialty I was thinking of doing) and as we were doing rounds, we came upon this one lady who had a stroke in the left side of her brain. Of all the 15 or so pts. we saw that day, she was doing GREAT! Greats vitals, etc. However, she couldn't verbally tells us what she wanted. I thought about how frustrating it must be for her. She was such a cute old woman. After the shift I fell into tears thinking about it. Due to my situation with my brother, I am EXTREMELY sensitive and wonder whether or not I can do this. I asked the CNS I work for in Neuro, and she said that you eventually "toughen up" and get used to it, but I don't know that I ever will. What should I do?? Do I give up nursing/a career in medicine b/c of my emotional issues?!?!?!
I keep thinking, what do I do?????!?!?!?!?
I"m sooooooooo confused right now and need help/advice/margaritas ()...ANYTHING! :eek: