Is that I have to take a half step backwards each time.
When my educator says I will be getting a new preceptor, I usually bite my lip, keep my breath hushed and low, and keep to myself. If you think about it, variety is good, because there's many ways to organize your day, do a procedure, and be a nurse. I figure I would learn something new from a new mind.
But that's not the case.
Apparently this coming week I'll have my 4th
preceptor as I enter my 10th week of my orientation in critical care, because my educator has led me to believe that it's whats best for me. It's as if a new set of eyes will magically turn my mostly competent skills as a new grad into a superstar.
If you were to ask me if I'm happy with my progress as a new nurse, I'd say yes. I'd say I'm not perfect, I'd say I make some small mistakes, and I'd say my biggest problems are prioritization and getting a little faster. I've been told these are things that should come with time and experience. Are they a big deal? Yes. Can they be fixed? Most definitely, I'm sure every new grad goes through it.
My most significant obstacle is that everyone says I am "doing fine
" when I ask, and then I hear from the higher-ups
that I have some problems and my co-workers expressed some concern about my progression and skills. Wait...what? No one told me this. If I knew I would fix it, honestly.
I'm tired of hearing things behind my back. I grew up in a culture where you talk to someone face to face if you need to. I can't fix a faucet if I don't know it's leaking.
So apparently the remedy to this is to have me switch preceptors, yet again. Which means I have to re-learn their way
of doing things (because it's wrong any other way), and it's ultimately a step back.
Management hired me as a new grad because I've been told I'm bright and grasp things easily. I was talked up like an all star football team that is Superbowl or bust, and honestly, I'm a new grad. There's going to be more bust than bowl, here.
Has anyone had a similar situation? I overall like my unit, but I have the feeling that their expectations are too high, and they are ultimately setting me up for failure. I'm hard working, and I do a good job, but apparently it's not up to their standards. It's times like these where I wish I had 1 year of experience, so I could entertain the possibility of interviewing and looking elsewhere.