I didn't participate except for paper work and foot work with my precep, but I saw my first code today. A suicide by hanging. He basically arrived DOA, but CPR was continually performed by EMT's and then the ED (cold outside,etc). When I saw the pictures of his little kids and his drivers license, it shook me up. He was so young and handsome. It really upset me to see somebody close to my age feel so helpless and hopeless to take his own life. I havn't been able to stop thinking about him. Even while I was shoveling snow a few hours ago, I thought to myself, "he'll never see snow again" "never build another snow man with his kids".