I'm incredibly smart, I promise... but one year ago, I didn't know what a PRN was. I got my BSN from an expensive/prestigious one year crash course program. Now my smarts have landed me in an ICU (which I'm totally stoked about). I'm about to get off of orientation and I do not feel ready: (
I fear losing my license over making a negligent mistake after orientation is over
I fear the things I don't know that I don't know ( if that makes sense)
I fear missing the critical signs in a patient because I'm overwhelmed with being task oriented and they end up dying.
I've literally been reading textbooks tryna remember all the millions of tidbits of information I should be cognizant of. It feels like it goes into one ear and out the other. (like pouring prbc into a hemorraging dic patient). I'm taking a million classes courtesy of my hospital too. I have pocket guides. I'm dizzy with it all.
1. I've adopted my own brain sheet with times meds and procedures mapped out.
2. I get there 30mins early so I can look at labs and medications, general condition of the patient I'm assigned to before report.
3.I also make my bed bath pallates ahead of time so I'm not struggling with it later.
I still manage to leave late : ( and feel like I'm the worst person on the team
Any advise? Words of encouragement? tips from the nice old battle nurses? things to read? How do I prioritize?!?!