I already posted on this forum previously but I wanted to post again.
Honestly, I've been reading a lot of posts here and very much relate to the experiences of new grad RNs. I've been orienting on my unit for about 2.5 months (didactic and unit time together) and I'm about 9 days away from finishing up. I've been training in critical care and felt I have learned A LOT however I get a lot of anxiety before, during and after work, and on my days off, just thinking about the unit and everything I've been doing. All the crazy thoughts/questions/ideas that fly through an anxious person's head has not been new to me.
I know there is a huge learning curve for new nurses and people say this will pass with time however, I sometimes wonder if nursing just isn't for me. Or maybe it's the actual unit that isn't for me. However, with all the talk of liability and the stress of the units, my anxiety becomes even greater and I feel like I should just avoid it all by getting out. However, I have also worked extremely hard to obtain my BSN and RN license and quitting wouldn't be great at all. However, sometimes I just feel like my sanity and happiness is more important than all that and maybe I'd be better with a less stressful yet lower paying job elsewhere. I mean, I wonder if I could use my degree in a decent non-clinical job elsewhere.
I've been thinking about taking anti-anxiety meds since it seemed to really surface during nursing school
and now I feel it even more. I don't know, I just feel really divided and uncertain about what decision to make. Maybe some of you can offer some advice or pointers. THanksk so much.