I used to like going in to work. I'm 4 months into my 1st job and the honeymoon is over. I get along well with older adults and thought LTC and med-surg would be good places to start (I'm a per diem float RN). Now I feel like there aren't enough hours in the day to get just the basics done, let alone follow up on a fax from a dr or even chart!
Of course, that would involve sitting down, which I seldom do (not a surprise, but still...) The LTC unit is getting ready for the annual state visit, so the mgr is trying to whip the unit into shape. I get that, and of course it's important to do our very best, follow policy, and keep the residents safe. It's creating a tense environment which I'm having a hard time insulating myself from. I seem to just absorb it all. Now I have end-of-the-month paperwork to do along with everything else, and all I can say is that I'm glad I'm on night shift for that. At least it's quiet. Is it too much to ask to not have a nervous stomach every time I head in to work? I used to feel a sense of loyalty to this job, but not anymore. I'm glad I didn't sign a contract, because if I got a FT job with benefits today, I'd have no problem giving my 2 weeks' notice. I'm reading through Donna Cardillo's book "Your First Year as a Nurse" and it's helping some.
I could just use an "atta girl, it'll be okay". And probably a walk every day wouldn't hurt, either. I'll try to fit that in. Hope everyone has a good day, wherever you are.