I started working for a local processing prison about 3 months ago & was determined to make it work. As a new grad, there were not a lot of jobs for me so I was thrilled and grateful to be offered what I saw as a great opportunity.
You may find an earlier post of mine titled "mean coworkers". That was just the tip of the iceberg.
Are all prisons this way? Med errors are a great example. We use paper mars.. plenty of room for error there. I don't get on the window passing DOT Meds often, but when I do I see meds checked off as given that we don't' have & never had, meds being given that are just the wrong meds. Being new, and slow cuz I actually do check all those 'rights' of med admin ever time, I usually have a supervisor looking over my shoulder, so those errors are caught and the people written up. Guess who gets the credit for finding errors? Yep, me. Imagine how popular I have become! Most people stop talking when I enter a room now.. a very bad sign, I know. I am pretending not to notice, and continue to chat about work stuff, compliment where I can & shut up when I can't, but it's getting harder and harder. The few really nice people avoid me now. I asked the most approachable why but he denied it but wouldn't look me in the eye. I can see the writing on the wall...
Inmates are running out of meds every single day. Serious meds too. It makes me crazy to see heart patients going without meds for days on end. I can't even give out a bandaid or tylenol. Charts are everywhere. If I can find one in under 20 min. it's a rare event, and the charts themsvles seem to be more to CYA than actual health care. Everyone I work with goes on and on about how awful the inmates are, how they hate their jobs.
I also am getting in trouble over talking to the inmates. I am not talking BS stuff, I am talking nursing stuff. What is the med Rx'd for, what are the side effects, how should it be taken. Isn't that what I am supposed to do? So maybe a few already do know and are just wanting to 'talk to a woman" as I hear over and over, how am I supposed to know this when no where is such documented? Am I reading my state scope of practice wrong? That seems to say that I HAVE TO have these 'talks". I make them as quick as possible, quicker than I am comfortable doing, but still am told to 'cut it short'.
I have been written up for med errors on days I have not even been there. When I am not yet allowed to scribble out mars, how could that happen? And they won't say who wrote me up, which is the way I think it should be but generally they are quite free in the info that it was I who found your med error.
Now they are changing my shifts. The reason given is that my regular shift is too busy to train me properly. Uh, wouldn't' they already know that? And it is, but after a couple of months, isn't it a bit late to be worrying about that? And this latest shift change is going to put me with a most unpleasant person. A friend of mine who works for corporate America says its the equivalent of putting an office in the closet & sadly, I see her point.
I'm getting so worn out. It's a battle every day I come in. I thought the inmates would be the worst part, but it's my coworkers & a system that seems to be designed more to cover your you know what, by covering up mistakes, (except mine!). I had heard that 'nurses often eat their young" but man... does it have to be this way? I mean, I got in trouble for fixing an O2 tank for an inmate. I was told I didn't follow 'policy'. Isn't airway a priority? The guy's lips were blue & it was just a bad regulator. Took me 5 min. to fix & boy, did I get in trouble. His sats were in the low 80's! What else could I have done?
I'd really like this to work, if it isn't already too late..or just outright impossible. They will have to fire me, cuz I won't quit without another job already lined up. (working on it but you know, the economy.) I'd like advice on how to either make this work, or how to exit without messing up future jobs. I just cannot continue with all these last minute shift changes. I can't ever remember being this tired & you all know, that will lead to a mistake. And I wonder if that isn't the point.
Is it like this everywhere? Can anyone explain to me why? And how bad, how hard will it be to explain to my next employer why I left this job? I will welcome any and all comments.