Hi, y'all. First time posting a new topic, and I hope you don't mind a little burnout vent. I'm having a hard time emotionally and I need someone to talk to. I think people here will understand.
I've been a CNA for 8+ years, right out of high school. I work in a nursing home where I've been close to 3 years. I'm looking at short-term job training opportunities so I can leave.
My problem is, I expect it could be a couple months (at least) until I can secure another job. And I'm at the point where it's hard to get through the shift.
My company is fabulous, wonderful staff. I care deeply about my residents and I strain to have a positive attitude. I try to smile a lot and be friendly and attentive, willing to help out and be a team player. I try to be very flexible and willing to accommodate the needs of the facility.
Being responsible for the health of all these people overwhelms me. I know they need quality care, but the stress of it all has gotten to me. Sometimes I "cope" by stuffing my face with junk food, which is unhealthy and immature. I've become distant from my few close relationships because of work.
The thought of going to work fills me with anxiety and dread. It's embarrassing admitting this, but I cry over my job too. I'm angry and irritable on a frequent basis. It can be hard to enjoy days off because I'm anticipating my next shift. Mostly I just feel miserable either at work or thinking about work. This is not a new thing, this has been going on constantly for a few years. I feel selfish, immature, and guilty because I am not really the committed caregiver I have to pretend to be.
The point of my post is this: how do YOU get through a hard shift, even if you may not feel burned out like I do? Are there deeper ways to cultivate a positive attitude? Is there a way I can learn to "fall in love" with the job so I don't have to feel so down all the time? I wasn't always this bad, especially not in my early years in my career.
Oh, and by the way, I don't think I'm suffering from clinical depression. I get great joy from my family, my friends, exercise, and unfortunately from food (as I mentioned....) My job is what makes me feel awful.
Sep 3, '12
I get burned out from my job, too, but I have a few ways of destressing which may be able to help:
On my last day or on days that I come home sore from head to toe, I take a nice hot bath to loosen up all my muscles and then sleep like a baby. It's a nice recharge.
I have a little hot pack that I got at a drugstore. It's made of clay and microwaves and stays hot for over an hour. That's a good replacement for a bath. (not the cleaning part, but for loosening up muscles)
Drinking hot herbal tea also helps.
Having a good friend, one who may have also been in healthcare before or works a similar stressful job so you can be eachother's sounding boards.
For me , I just have to take a deep breath and take pride in knowing I did the best I could to do right by my patients and give them proper care they deserve. Once the shift is over, I leave it behind me and try not to let it rent space in my head. I hope you can cope or find something that is a better fit. Big hugs, good luck <3
Last edit by mindyfromcali on Sep 3, '12
: Reason: editing :P
Hope you can find answers.
Last edit by JDZ344 on Nov 2, '14