I've graduated about four months ago, and I'm working as an RN in a small urban hospital. (Small enough that we ship out the bad folks) I am currently working in the ICU/CCU. I've lived around here my whole life and am looking to potentially move. The only problem is...I'm terrified. I'm terrified to pick up and leave and head out into that great unknown- I went away to school and my boyfriend (at the time) broke up with me my first day away, so I transferred home and have been here ever since.
Any encouragement would help!
I just don't know what to do- I do know that the hospital I'm working at is so poorly managed that I'll burn out by the time I'm 21. (I'm 20 now) When I thought about leaving the ICU, my manager told my preceptor to "Not bother giving me any type of orientatio because I wasn't staying anyway" and to "Not waste her time on me". *sigh* When our assistant manager bid out of the Unit for a manager position, the Unit manager brought her things out in a box and told her to "Get out today if you're so worried about leaving".
I just...I don't know. The way I've been treated kind of makes me not even want to be a nurse, because maybe I'm just...bad at it. *sigh*
No job is worth that kind of misery either! You have a nursing degree and can do so much. You can go anywhere you want and have a job.
I left home after hs as many others have posted. I moved from CT to CA. Sometimes I was homesick, but many times I was too wrapped up in the new adventure.
If you got through NS, you can move on, especially if it is what you want. I bet your first day of nursing school was scary too. Use that experience to build your strength.
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SmilingBluEyes
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And yes, no man is worth the misery you are in now. You do deserve better.