Warm Fuzzies Story

You were one of two patients I had during the start of that early week in January. Your story wasn't unlike many others I've read, but little did I know how much your recovery would impact me in the months to come. Everyone needs a friendly reminder now and then of why we do what we do- here's mine. Nurses Announcements Archive Article


Warm Fuzzies Story

Your story isn't unlike many others I've read, carefully reading the printed handwriting on your flow sheet as the night shift nurse gives me a detailed list of your injuries. You're young, I don't need to see your birth date to know that as I glance up from the cubby outside your room to look at your face, only nineteen years old and your first trip to a level one trauma center.

You were the driver in the accident, I'll later see pictures of your car wrapped around a telephone pole on the local news station. It was pretty bad, you weren't breathing on the scene so the first responders got to you ASAP. Your 15 year old friend in the passenger seat was taken to a different hospital and discharged a few days later but you, the sickest, you came to see us.

And your tox screen was pristine. The accident was in no way your fault. But it left you with a laundry list of injuries: a broken pelvis, long bone fractures in your leg now placed in traction, and a sneaking suspicion of mine that your head cracked the windshield when you so abruptly stopped. I'll tell your mother who is dutifully keeping watch in the back of the room that we needed to fix the things that would kill you within the first few hours before going back to fix your leg. Its hard to believe that when a traction set up is the first thing that hits you when you come into the room but at one point and time you were that sick.

You're still on a ventilator that first morning of three when I'm your nurse. You have a nasogastric tube and a central line with a pretty basic list of medications, pain meds, sedation, and fluids. and your vent settings are low enough that I know your lungs didn't take a beating through all of this. Its a good sign, they might even be able to extubate you soon if only you would start following commands.

So I start my day like any other, gathering information from the computerized charting, the list of systems. and any concerns given to me by the night shift nurse. Its time to wake you up, coaxing you slowly out of the propofol haze so I can try and get you to put your thumbs up when I ask, wiggle your toes, stick your tongue out- anything so I know you're hearing me in there and can understand me. I encourage your mom to help when I wake you up, sometimes I think hearing that familiar voice helps keep you calm when you can't talk and are breathing through a soda straw as multiple people scream at you. We know its not a good idea to yell at someone rapidly coming out of sedation but sometimes we do it anyways...

You respond little by little, the slight shift of a foot, you even crack an eye open at your mom's voice. I go slowly, remembering the previous shift's warning that "he wakes up like a bear." That adds to my suspicion you might have a head injury. Not breathing after the crash, lacerations to your head, and that snap- like turning on a light switch from a groggy propofol daze to "WHAT'S GOING ON?" in 0-6 seconds...yeah, its not confirmed just yet but we nurses don't give someone the term "head-ey" without doing out research.

Fortunately the "bear" doesn't rear his ugly head and I get enough of a response that I'll consider that almost following commands- for now. Unfortunately it doesn't get any better than that for me, I can't give you the highest neurological assessment every time I pause the sedation, but every once in a while I do. And I can lower your sedation to give you the best chance to respond without the risk of you yanking your breathing tube out. Your vent settings come down even further.

Things aren't so easy that night. Apparently you have a few episodes where you thrash around and try to self-extubate- a four letter word in any ICU. It scares your mom because the night nurse who comes in to tackle you back down to the bed doesn't have anyone else behind her, so there she is, pinning one arm down as the nurse takes the other and puts you back to sleep. The cavalry it seems, is either busy at those moments, or they can't hear her. You happen to be one of the lucky patients in a corner room which makes things even more difficult. Your mom starts to feel obligated to stay and the sedation goes back up, you follow commands sporadically when its safe enough to pause the sedation but fortunately your vent settings stay low. Family members come and go on day two because your mom looks exhausted and your family all agree she needs sleep.

But the second day I have the same success, I start to bring your sedation back down. Your friends even come in, your buddy from the accident is in a wheelchair but he's doing okay. I later text my boyfriend (who I learned was at the wreck and transported your friend) that your buddy looks well.

And then the tipping point happens where I think we might actually be able to take that tube out. Your sedation is low enough that when the trauma team rounds on you in the mid afternoon the second day I hear their attending ask why you aren't extubated.

"He isn't following commands, we're working on it though," I say, representing the critical care side in the ICU.

There goes the trauma attending, a tall and imposing military man who scrubs with hand sanitizer, walks in the room, puts his hands on your traction frame and barks out in his best drill sergeant voice "open your eyes!"

Oh...well hello there.

Caught between thoughts of men...and you little... I watch as you wiggle your toes, put your thumb up, and stick out your tongue. Okay...you're one of those guys. The night nurse and myself were women, so is your mom (obviously)...maybe you just need us to be mean...or men. And note that neither myself, nor the previous nurse, nor your mother are soft spoken...you apparently just like to listen to guys instead of us. Your mom and I share a satisfied glance and she starts to tear up and hug the doctor...its a sign you're getting better.

And I could tell you plenty more stories. When you actually were extubated neither the Drill Sergeant Attending nor the nurses could get you to say anything although without the propofol you did follow commands. In fact the only word I got out of you was "broccoli?" immediately after you were extubated and started spewing green florets everywhere (where were you packing that by the way? I had your NG tube on suction for a full hour before we took the tube out). Or the time where you, acting head-ish, (which we would later learn was because you were sporting a DAI...) wiggled all of your 6 foot 2 frame to the edge of the bed while in 30 pounds of traction and tried to flip over on your stomach. Oh yeah you were strong...strong enough that when I called a nurse in to help fix the sheets you nearly picked me up off the ground as we turned you on your side and you somehow got your arm around my waist.

Frankly I'm not sure how it happened either, but by the end of the third day your mom was asking where she could leave a comment card about my care. And in the week after she always took time to say hello to me in the hallways, as did your brother and your aunt. I even remember one night where I helped your brother who was panicking because he saw your arterial line go flat (you were flapping your wrist around) and I kept your arm still as he helped me re-zero the line.

You came in once for a follow-up visit too. You were talking then, all the lines and tubes out of your body, and a knee immobilizer on your leg. Your voice was still soft and quiet as your mom introduced me. You didn't remember me specifically but I have a feeling you knew you had spent some time there. It was okay, I had the biggest smile on my face. You're only the second patient I've seen that came back to the floor and recognized me in some form or another, even if it was your family. It felt good.

What feels even better is seeing the segment of you after I saw pictures from the accident, 8 months later, where you and your friend are standing tall. There's not an ounce of hesitation or softness in your voice, just a little hitch in your step as the camera pans out. We fixed you up and in return you're hosting a blood drive to give back to the community. I keep staring at the screen as I watch and notice my eyes getting a little misty.

You can bet I'll be there. I can't tell you how it feels to see someone I've cared for look like he blends right into the crowd. Oh I know things aren't the same, and this experience will probably shape you for the rest of your life. But I'll look back on that day and when the shift is rough and things are going to hell in a handbasket I'll be able to say this is why I do what I do and know that every once in a while, I do make a difference.

RN; Trauma ICU

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Specializes in PICU.

Beautifully written!

canesdukegirl, BSN, RN

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Specializes in Trauma Surgery, Nursing Management.

Blue-what a story!

Yes, this is our reward. The deposits that are made in our emotional bank account when this happens makes us rich.

You, my friend, are wealthy.

Hugs to you! Canes


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Specializes in Pediatrics, Med-Surg, Infectious Disease.

Great story!


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Specializes in Dialysis.

Brought tears of joy to my eyes... your story kept me in suspense. It really hit home for me because watching the ICU nurses skillfully and compassionately care for my daughters father after a car accident is what made me want to be a nurse.

And now with 10years of experience under my belt I am still amazed by excellent nurses like yourself!!!

Specializes in Trauma ICU.

Thank you all. Serenidad2004, I am humbled, I'm still a baby nurse working on my third year :) Your comments mean a lot!


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Specializes in Trauma SICU.

Oh dear, that's marvelous. I'm so happy for him and you this also explains why I want to do trauma. The ability to truly fix someone is incredible and not something that happens often. Especially in the world of CHF, COPD, and Cancer.


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This is a wonderfully written piece. I think that this why nurse do what we do. We want to help those that need our help the most. From the smallest cuts to the deepest wounds nurses are the people who help make those better. Not just anyone can do that, it takes a special person. It may sound cliche but to be a good nurse you have to have that something special in you. You have that something special. Inspiring story and work!

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