I just found out that I'm back on the wait list. They take people in order of application (if they pass the test), and they are on the 2003 applicants. I'm an '04 applicant. Looks "more promising" in 2006. I have a job right now, but it doesn't pay enough to cover my medical bills (I was hospitalized w/o insurance after an accident, also had to have P.T. and tooth replacement) and other bills. So I was living with mom and dad until after school would be over. That way I could pay my bills (with rent, that was a definite no!). Now my car is on its last leg, and I communte, so that's another potential bill looming. Luckily, dad's a mechanic, but he can't make it run forever. I know I'll get in in 2006, and I'm really looking forward to classes, and school. With my rockin' RN mom as a tutor, I'm gonna shine! But now what? I feel so lucky to have found a job now with insurance, and even though it doesn't pay that great, it's better than no job! I'm also really, really fortunate to have a mom and dad that love me enough to put up with me, because I'd definitely be either homeless, or on welfare (and I'd have to quit my job to go on that) without them. They rock! I just feel like such a loser, living at home. I pay them for food (under protest from them!), and am doing a lot of home repairs for them right now. The house is pretty old, and needed repairs, but they haven't been able to do them. My mom is also sick, and I've been taking care of her after work and on the weekends. Is it okay to stay with them another year? Should I give up on this? Try to find another career? Or accept my parents' help? Is this a dumb American question? I know that I'm lucky to live in this country and wrestle with such a dilema as this when others are struggling to find food and dying from abysmal conditions.
Thanks for letting me rant, I do feel a little better now!
