unsafe new nurse

[juana15]

I had a bad experience at work and I am wondering if I am a good fit for this job. I'm a new grad working as an RN for the first time in a busy med-surg floor, ratio 5-1. I carry the whole pt load with some help here and there. I have been with a preceptor approximately 7 weeks. I attempted to start an IV for my pt today and after 2 failed attempts grabbed my preceptor which had no issue helping me out. Here's where the problem lies: I can't explain why I didn't throw out the second needle after I attempted to start the IV for abx infusion. I either left it on the bedside table or bed (I couldn't understand my preceptor because of her accent plus my nerves didn't allow me to hear everything she said). She was understandably upset, (to make matters worse, the pt is + for viral infx) about possibly getting sticked.

Did I think, I'm coming right back in with my preceptor to observe & I'll know where I left my stuff? Was I worried the antibiotic is late? Was I worried I'm behind again with all my pts. Thinking back I thought all of these but these are inexcusable for what I did. This isn't my first mistake and I know it won't be my last but geesh I can't help but think this was B - A - D. Has anyone out there made it through after doing something along these lines: you know it's unsafe but you're unfocused and aren't thinking? That's the best I can describe this situation.

[iowa27]

I understand where you're coming from juana15. I'm also a new nurse and in a few days I will also be on my own. I'm not one to get very anxious and can usually keep my cool. However, I've found that there is so much to think about that it gets overwhelming. Yesterday, I felt like I was rushing through the morning, that I didn't really "soak-in" what I was doing. When it came to my afternoon med, I needed to ask my preceptor how to give a certain med. She reminded me that we give it just like we did that morning. I was so embarrassed and a bit stunned that I had forgotten that I had done this.

Now I'm wondering if I'm going to remember anything when I get on my own.

[sallyrnrrt, ADN, RN]

in my almost 43yr. practice , let me tell you "i never made a mistake"......NOT!

each error or kax in oerformance can be a learning experience, dont beat your self up....we "olefossils" need your help

[ariesnursern]

Well you'll never do that again. Forgive yourself and carry on !

[caliotter3]

A lot of our mistakes and near mistakes are avoided by just slowing down and really thinking about what we are doing at the moment.

[juana15]

I was thinking that exact thought today caliotter3. As I think back on stuff I think: I should've slowed down! I am reminded think safety whenever completing a task. Thank you guys for the advice !! I've had better days since then & hoping to continue improving on the floor :)

[abittooreal]

i found a used needle in a pt room today and i thought about this thread. i probably left it there earlier.