So I just got out of the Marine Corps last year and am in an ADN program. The issue I'm having is working mostly with a lot of Men all the time. I am enjoying working with a lot of women. I have had a lot of terrible experiences with women. Growing up, my mother had a drug addiction growing up in crack houses living with different people's entire childhood, etc. Well, in the Marines, women are not treated very well a lot of the time, and talked down to,fake rumors sexual abuse a lot of super disgusting things just a tough life, and its a hard life. So what I'm getting at is I feel like a butt hole for having those views on women mostly peers pressure . Now working with so many adamant, intelligent, and powerful women, I can't change my childhood, but these women are showing me the best side of women possible. I find my self wanting approval looking at them as mentors more than most men I have had, but I don't feel like I fit the shoes of a nurse no matter how bad I try. I love the classes I find it interesting. Honestly, at first, I was in it for the money, and well being deployed a lot I wanted a family. What I'm asking is how do I get the women I go to class with to want to work with me, cause I want to be a good team member and I want to stop acting like I Know every dang thing like I did in the Marines. I need help, and I want to ensure I am working correctly and not messing stuff up. So I might make it into the program. I want this so bad, I don't want to be the *** guy that no one wants to work with. I was with _____________, and it was very close group. I want the same cohesion where ever I start working. Honestly, I want to fit in. I'm very confident, I'm not afraid to answer questions and tell people there wrong and I enjoy being corrected I feel like it makes me a stronger student and maybe one day RN. I am not very good-looking, so I can only assume instead of being sure I look like an *** not mentioning the looks because of women but in general if you ugly people think your annoying. I want to be a good nurse, I'm not expecting a pity party and a well you have been "a sexist piece of *** your whole " life it's okay we will treat you like your not part of the problem women are still suppressed in the world. I would never bring this up in person. I want to fit in, and I want to know how to be a helpful male nurse. I want to get torn apart, which is fine. I like crying my self to sleep LOL. Looking for advice on how to better approach trying to be apart of a team. Thank you
