Lately I have just been down in the dumps, feeling terrible about myself because of how quiet, shy, and introverted I am. I recently started volunteering at a hospital and did my best to hide how shy I really was, but didn't hide it well enough and got assigned to admitting, where I don't do much but sit in a chair my whole shift. They said they needed someone more social to be in the places where you could interact with patients.
In addition to this, I'm taking an oral communication class this semester. We had our first speech yesterday, and it was really rough for me. I spent hours preparing my speech and forgot to eat all day because of how much anxiety I got thinking about how I was going to give it. I even cried a little and was considering on ditching class.
I hate how I am like this. I know that good nurses are very interactive with their patients, and I'm starting to think that I'm not cut out for nursing. I wish I was more social, but every time someone points out how shy I am, it just makes me not want to talk even more and feel sorry for myself. I wish I could change and need advise on how I can be less shy.
