After a long long summer of studying things have finally come together. I took the boards in July and failed. I went right back to the books. Put my all into the beast.
I retested on Saturday. The computer shut down at 75 and I felt pretty good. As time went on I started to have those feelings of despair. Couldn't think straight!
Then today at 12 pm. 49 hours later there was the word I have been waiting for "pass".
This board has been very helpful mentally and especially finding out I wasn't alone.
Good luck to all!