Thursday November 6 2025

Tweety, BSN, RN · Nov 6, 2025

Good morning!

Joe, hope you have a good day.

Stars, that is indeed a tough situation being the caretaker of a woman you never liked, all the while in a house you're going to inherit, making it difficult to just walk away and not having the finances to do that anyway. One day you'll be on the other side and your husband would be thankful.

Ado, get well soon.

Cleaning up diet and lifestyle is a tough won and I agree all the good stuff is bad for you.

J22, popcorn is a whole grain, so there is that.

I listened to a podcast yesterday and it featured a man who went through a painful cancer and treatment that was Stage IV when he was 25. He made it through and is an influencer on social media from Germany. He somehow came out of that experience with a really good attitude. One of those "find the good in the bad" people, but "feel your feelings and acknowledge how you feel about the bad" people. This is so the opposite of my personality which is anxiety ridden and negative.

Also, I realize that some of the worst things I ever been through, I've made it through, and they've lead me places I might not have gone. For example, getting fired from a job for being gay in the 80's lead me to nursing school and here I sit 34 years later in my own home, with a car and looking at a decent retirement. Prior to that I really crashed and burned in Atlanta, got in a 12 step program and that enabled me in the first place to hold down a job, get fired and then get into nursing school while working for Pizza Hut.

Anyway, yesterday I did got caught up on work lessons but got stuck on one and couldn't advance because I kept getting a question wrong when I know I answered it correctly. Sent a screenshot to the educator and have to leave it undone. I also did housework and did my Monday and Tuesday chores on Wednesday (sweeping and mopping and cleaning the bathrooms), along with two loads of laundry.

Today best friend and I are going to a nearby library that has an exhibit of Queer artists that it does annually. It's a small exhibit but usually pretty creative. The library is part of a county cooperative but is funded by the city and other sources. It wouldn't fly anywhere else but this city Gulfport (a small city next to St. Pete, but being a megapolis county we seem like the same city) is known for its queer-friendly nature and the home to many gay people and businesses (particularly lesbians).

We're going to try a new Vietnamese restaurant there and watch a movie later.

I don't feel very rested despite being off five days now. I woke up sometime after 4AM and struggled some. I'm reminded I have insomnia.

Tomorrow would have been the day we would have been leaving for Thailand but it's not meant to be. It was the right decision to cancel as I'm still having frequent relapses in symptoms like yesterday, but not as bad as the height.

Sheesh this was a long post and I'll end it now. If you made it this far, I thank you. LOL

No Stars In My Eyes, LPN · Nov 6, 2025

I do have to say that my praise for the Probiotics straightening me out was a little premature. I ended the late evening/early morning (2AM) with an unfortunately uncontrollable release of the lower digestive/intestinal system's liquid contents. Thankfully I had two Loperidal for last night, and two for this morning (11AM). Will have to have some on-hand for if/when it happens again, so a brief trip to the drugstore is on today's list, I also have some 'rude' laundry to take care of today. (Was that TMI?)

CG comes this afternoon at 1:30. Wish, oh, wish-wish-wish I had a full week off from Nannie-care so I could putter around and pick up the mess I make of everything by ignoring it. Procrastination probably doesn't help my moodiness.

"Other than that, Mrs Lincoln, how did you like the play?"

I mean, at first I just looked at things with the attitude that Jesus was 'leading me in the path of righteousness', and also I was somehow passing along the care I did not get to give my own mother during her last year and days. But this 'path of righteousness' does not make me feel particularly righteous any more. And my own mother would NEVER have been as difficult as Nannie-Bannannie is! I say 9 years with Nannie is payback enough to the universe, so SOMEONE OUGHT TO DO SOMETHING! But not me..... all I know to do is keep slogging along, because, Tweety, you hit the nail squarely on the head about my situation. But I keep telling myself that at least I have a roof over my head .... I was going to say that not having to pay rent or mortgage is a blessing, which assuredly is the absolute truth, but it feels a little, um, tarnished a bit by who and how Nannie is. Ooooooooooh well 😫 🤔 😳

Time to get out of bed and get dressed. CG will be here in a little while FOR a little while, so at least that is something. But my "time off" always feels more like a never-ending case of the hiccups! The spaces in which I should relax and enjoy myself are few and far between. My younger brother says I have already earned my halo and wings by staying here. Big whoop, huh? What kind of "angel" feels so resentful and almost hopeless?

So eeenywayz, that's the same old same old. Thanks for y'all being here to be able to vent to!

Ado Annie, ASN, RN · Nov 6, 2025

I don't feel too guilty about popcorn. Like Tweety says, it's a whole grain. I used to refuse to use microwave popcorn because it was so over-seasoned but they do better now so I do buy it. Still like to pop it myself with a little oil, then add salt. Can't quite go to the air-popped version. In fact, we did this last night, with apple slices and cheese (I had sliced gouda, swiss, and habanero jack). Cheese - fat and sodium again.

nursej22, MSN, RN · Nov 7, 2025

The weather has turned very windy, but warm, around 60, and a few rain showers. Typical fall weather. After a nice long walk, I came back to do laundry. I saw dh had his dirty clothes separated into piles on the bedroom floor, so I knew I better use the washer and dryer while I had a chance. He went to pick up his grocery order, and then to the hardware store. He likes to visit with the store manager whom he used to work with.

I finally dug out my Winter clothes and tucked away all my shorts. I'm not looking forward to 6 months of damp and cold. I would love to fly to somewhere warm for a few days, but there is no way I'm getting on a plane for now.

We were supposed to go to our monthly Weed Class yesterday, but both of us forgot! I need to put a reminder on the calendar when I figure out when the next class will be.

dh is trying a new recipe for potatoes au gratin tonight. Hmm, fat and carbs.