The Covid pandemic has changed nurses professional and private lives. How have we become stronger from the lessons learned? Nurses Announcements Archive
Published Aug 28, 2020
spotangel, DNP, RN, NP
24 Articles; 518 Posts
So many things have changed in a blink of an eye. The Covid pandemic took and shook lives left, right, and center. Along with most others, my life changed.
My children were in an uproar.
My 14-year daughter, Angela, was crying and shouting, “You don’t trust me!”
We were discussing the new school options due to Covid restrictions.
I was in favor of the hybrid program 2 days a week in class and three online days. The kids wanted an online program only. Some of their arguments were:
My side of the argument went like this:
To date, I am not sure if I will send her for an in-person or online class but here is my wish list for in-person school.
My older two kids are in college. Alex is doing online classes but struggling to find sites for an internship. Annie will have online classes but on-site labs. I would recommend the same rules as schools but would also emphasize “no parties and social hours”. That seems to be a surefire way of getting into Covid exposure.
As a parent, I worry, but here is the silver lining:
My husband works as a social worker in a trauma 1 ED at night. He has had many one-on-one conversations with patients who have Covid and are trying to arrange the home front or dealing with other issues. It does involve a lot of near contact. I work in a clinic but was deployed to my main hospital to work with Covid positive patients. I don’t want to go into the daily horrors of watching patients die in large numbers daily in New York, the feeling of helplessness when we did not code dying patients due to the risk of spreading the virus during chest compression and intubation, holding a dying patient’s hand, getting their family on Facetime on my personal phone as they didn’t have any other ways available in the hospital, worrying if I would infect my family, the exhaustion physically and mentally, feeling the heat of the PPEs as I sweated profusely, trying not to use the restroom as I would have to disrobe while conserving my PPEs----sufficient to say was a nightmare. I had anxious nights when I could not sleep and dreaded going to work the next day, painful calluses from being on my feet for 12.5 hours, wheezing from the N95 that smelled funny, skin breaks especially behind my ears, and unexpected bouts of crying and anger. Was it PTSD? So what did I learn for the future and how would I prepare for the next wave of the pandemic whenever it came?
Here are some of my strategies:
Your community may be reeling from the effects of this pandemic. Keep your eyes open and see where you can help. Share what you can.
I recently taught an online Zoom class on leadership for Nurse Practitioner students this Summer. I made sure I got a sense of where they were starting from. This class was to be an in-person class and so there was a lot of disappointment. The class was also changed from a 15-week class to a 7-week class, so there was a lot of material to cover. They also had another class before mine and so I was mindful to make the time meaningful and useful to them. I divided them into teams and had their assignments as team projects. They were given an opportunity to present as a team and that helped their confidence level. I also got real-life leaders to come in as Zoom guest speakers to discuss their daily routines, challenges during the pandemic and solutions they came up with. Being creative to keep the class relevant helped the students tremendously and they stated that they really learned from this class.
Another thing I did was to check in with them during the Zoom meetings and also in between through group emails to provide them with gentle reminders on upcoming deadlines. I kept in mind that many were working under tremendous stress in Covid units and providing care for elderly parents and young children, along with being a student, wage earner, and parent. They were very appreciative of the caring and responded by studying and excelling in my class! I was able to help them discover their own leadership skills and areas of improvement that they could work on! The importance of advocacy was stressed.
I believe that college is going to be more online except when you need a one-on-one class like a skillset lab during this pandemic.
It is important to keep an eye and ear out for all the new legislation that is put out from each state and find out what your local politician’s stand is on issues that are important to you. This should help you when you cast your vote. Legislation on worker safety, PPEs, Infection control measures, etc., should be looked at carefully.
Know your union rights if you have a nurse’s union and know the safety policies of your workplace.
Volunteer to be on committees at the workplace and know your union representatives by name. Exercise your right to vote. You can help make history and protect your patients and your own rights when you are an informed and savvy voter.
Never forget colleagues that lost their lives working on the frontlines. Some of their stories are heartbreaking. A nurse that I mentored, came down with Covid symptoms in the ED, begged to be tested, was refused, and sent home on antibiotics. Two days later, she was admitted to a neighboring hospital where she ended up going into respiratory arrest, was intubated, and died the next day. The rage and anger are real for her coworkers. The knowledge that the very hospital she worked for failed to provide her with safe care. In her memory and others who died in the line of duty, let us strive to speak up, advocate and garner support from the community we serve to stay protected, and to protect our patients by providing safe and equitable care.
Anyone who worked the frontline would tell you that the pandemic challenged them mentally and physically. When everything fell on the nurse including being put in an unfamiliar environment with inadequate skillsets in place to take care of critically ill patients with minimal to no supplies and inadequate PPEs, it took a toll daily. Two months at the frontlines gave me PTSD and I still cannot talk about those days without breaking down and crying. Even though I was down, I tried to help the brand new nurses that were breaking down daily and tried to encourage them even though I was broken on the inside. I kept telling myself that I would cry when I got home. When I reached home, I would try and be cheery in front of my worried family. At 3 am, I would awaken and cry into my pillow. By 6 am I was up and out the door for my 7 am shift. After coming back to the clinic “post-deployment”, I had an opportunity to speak to a psychologist on the phone twice but could not say much without crying. I still found those sessions helpful.
Many hospital systems have put in help lines for staff to call but to me, it’s still fresh in my mind and I find it hard to share my experiences. One of the things I found helpful was to quietly help others who are struggling. It gives me the feeling of hopefulness, unlike the helplessness I felt before. Be aware of your coworkers and administrators. Many are struggling at this point and may need a helping hand. Meanwhile, the patients who struggle the most already have underlying anxiety issues. I tend to ask them how Covid affected them and sometimes it's like a dam broke!
At the end of the day going through this pandemic has made me stronger and more appreciative of life!
God keep you safe in these tough times! We are nurses! We are here to stay and save, Covid or no Covid!
BSN-to-MSN, ADN, BSN, RN
398 Posts
Hi, there!
I appreciate your advice and sharing your experience!
My experience has been similar, although I refrain from using the "new normal". This is NOT normal.
Not normal in ANY way. I hope this all will go away soon.
Thank you!
I hear you!
I long for the good old "normal " days of yesterday! Even when the pandemic is gone, we as a society have already changed.
I mean can you even cough in public without feeling guilty! LOL!
I always carry water and a cough drop just in case I feel a tickle in my throat! Jeez!