5th Attempt at NCLEX, PASSED!

[Cindy S. RN 2018]

I used to come on here and read the stories of others for inspiration, or sometimes just not to feel alone and worthless when I would take NCLEX and fail yet again. All the Glory to GOD, I finally passed!!! Long story, short. I was supposed to graduate May 2014, but was held back a year due to not being able to pass the Hesi as required by my school. So I graduated May 2015. I took the 3 day Hurst review, I thought I was ready because I had being studying for Hesi and finally passed. Unfortunately, all I could think was I had to pass I had already been sitting at home for a year, my baby was getting older, and things weren't getting better. On the day of the test I had extreme diarrhea, I had to take an anti-diarrhea medicine, when I went into the testing room, I couldn't breath, the room felt as if it were closing in on me, but I remember thinking I can't leave because that $200 that was spent was a sacrifice. So I tried to give it my best, 6 hours later, I ranned out of time at question 255. I've never ever felt the way I felt when I found out I FAILED. I took the test again a year later after using Saunders, and Kaplan, only to stay 6 hours and take 265 questions. Then third time in 2017, six hours the computer stopped 207 questions, the fourth time June 2018, 157 question in six hours this time was using Uworld and Happy Nclex, both were great, but I truly feel that I was over thinking what the questions they were asking. Of course, while I was trying to prepare to take this exam for the 5th time, everything around me was falling apart. I had family members talking about me, others joking about how I wasn't smart enough to pass it, that their child could pass it before I would. I had people tell me to forget about it, maybe it wasn't for me. In the midst of this I had a miscarriage, as I start to wonder if maybe this wasn't for me too. But when I think about Nursing my heart sings... Doesn't mean I didn't want to give up. But I did have two people in my corner that wouldn't allow me to give up on myself, I know they are truly God sent. I brought UWorld again but with everything going on, and working and being a Mom of 1 already, I didn't have the time, nor energy. I was already registered and was going to lose my money. My Boyfriend was like just take it and see how you do, maybe it will give you and idea about what to try and study next time. So on December 15th 2018, we left for the testing center, got down the street and the car started shaking, I asked God, where are you? Please Help Me! We had to turn around, all I could think was I have to get there, even if it means I to put my thumb up and beg for a ride. We got back into the neighborhood, I couldn't call Uber because We only had $22 in the bank, and I knew I would need more. My boyfriend saw a old friend and asked him, told him how important it was, he said he would charge $20 to take me. I was like deal! At this point it 17 mins until my scheduled time, and it takes around 20 mins to get there. We got there, the ladies in there were super sweet and supportive, which helped calm my nerves. I went in and panicked a little because I hadn't studied and I knew the odds were against me. But I prayed and talked to God, it helped to shut up those anxious thoughts that tried to arise. I was there about 2.5 hours and I was thinking I know I need to speed up because I'm going to run out of time again. But then after 75 it shut off to the case study questions. I just knew I failed. I was like OMG I am getting worse I've never had it shut off so early. Wow, so when my BF picked me up and asked how do I feel, I was laughing like I failed big time. He started reading about others, and said I think you probably passed, I was like whatever. So at first, I refused to pay $8 for quick results, I was just like I'll wait for the CPR, which usually comes in two days. A week went by nothing. So I just paid for the Quick results, and waited until I was at work to open it because I knew I wouldn't cry in front of co workers. When I saw PASS, I almost hit the floor. I could believe it, I still can't... I always said when I pass I would post my testimony on here. In no way am I saying to go about it the way that I handled it. But this is for the believers. With God all things are possible. Have faith in God, and have faith in yourself. The 4 years of disappointment, hurt, anger, and confusion, I went through is all worth it, if my story will help someone not give up and keep the faith. Knowing in due time it will be your time also. God Bless all of you.

[bound&determined91, ADN, LPN, RN]

Bless you honey and congratulations!! I'm a repeat test taker myself and I am using uworld for questions. What did you use for content or what do you feel like helped you the most. Content I have hurst and remar.

Congratulations again. ?

[GlitterPrincess]

So glad you didn't give up! Even when the odds were against you- that is a testament to your character, integrity and strength (which are all necessary characteristics of a great nurse)! Congratulations on your success, and best of luck as you embark on this new chapter in your life! ❤️

[ambitiousjnyc]

Thank you Cindy S. RN for sharing your story, it has helped me tremendously...CONGRATS on your accomplishment!!!!!!!!!!!!!:)

[YSO_nurseinthemaking]

Congratulations! What an amazing story of perseverance and resilience!

[Chibibleu]

Thank you for your story. I need inspiration in my life. I failed my nclex 5th and feel like giving up. Did you take all uworld questions? I keep thinking about getting it.