I'm 18 years old and just started my second semester of nursing school. Ever since I was 12-13, I've wanted to work with people and in the medical field. I volunteered at hospitals and clinics, and just really wanted to work with people in some way, especially kids. But lately, I've been second guessing it, mostly because of how hard this upcoming semester is looking to be. I look at the calandar of all my classes and just start crying. I just don't know that I can do it. I get horrible migraines every day (nauseous, can't bare any light, curl-up-in-a-ball and cry kind of migraines), from stress, numbness in my arms and legs, chest pain, and shooting back pain, again from stress, and frequent anxiety attacks about how I'm going to do all of the things expected of me in nursing school, plus the two extra classes I have to take to keep enough credit hours for my scholarship. I know there are people who do this in much less ideal situations than myself, I know compared to others with kids and husbands, I have it sooo easy. But it's really taking a toll on me =( I'm miserable.
But, at the same time, I know I should stay in. I KNOW I should. If I'm going to do this, now is the time. People have done this with SO much harder cirumstances than me and, I don't know, I feel like it'd be such a waste for me to quit just cause it's getting tough. I don't want to have that quitters mentality. I'm on more than enough scholarship money, I live with my parents (who really want me to stick it out), and I've already invested a couple years into pre-reqs and my previous nursing semester. Plus, I feel like giving up a decent paying job at 19-20 years old would be completely stupid of me.
Right now though, I want to quit and go back when I'm a few years older, after I've had somewhat of a normal late teen-20 something life, as opposed to being a miserable, constantly-crying 18 year old who spends all her time having panic attacks about care plans and simulations.
Opinions? Advice? Anything is greatly appreciated.