Scared to death I am going to lose my license

[tolerantgirl]

This is my 1st year in nursing, actually 1 year will be January. I am scared to death every day I go to work and on all the days I have off because I am terrified I have made an error. I have nightmares that I am going to be reported to the BON and lose my license. I stayed in the unit where I had been secretary for years and even though that knowledge has been beneficial, I feel like I am still the secretary-answering phones, doing my own orders, etc.. I feel like I am not smart enough to be a nurse. I leave late almost every shift I work. When I give report to some nurses, they roll their eyes and then I give report to some nurses who won't shut up while I am giving report because they interrupt me complaining about the assignment. I get so frustrated. Is this going to get better? What should I do?

[thegreenmile]

Remember Rod Stewart's song, "Every picture tells a story dont it?" I just noticed your username is "tolerantgirl", Uh Uh....consider something like, "brave one" or "irrefutable differences". Puff up your chest and leave a trail, don't take the path of least resistance and you'll see amazing changes.

[MsPdx]

It's reassuring reading all your posts. I just started my first position last Monday as a nurse in an assisted living facility. I know that the acuity is certainly not as high as a hospital, but I've already gone home dwelling on things I should have done, documentation I should have been more detailed on. In the five days I've worked, it seems there is always a incidence report to complete due to a resident falling (lots of residents with dementia) and others just struggling with all the things that go along with aging. I am basically scared to death, and to top it all off, I have several caregivers I must supervise. At this point I almost believe they know more than me! I know it's only been five days, but sheesh, I'm starting to doubt my abilities. Please keep those reassuring posts coming! I really feel alone and scared!