For my last year of school (traditional BSN Nursing; I took 5 years instead of 4 b/c I failed one course my first year of the program), I was complaining a LOT & became emotionally dependent on my boyfriend of 4.5 years. I was in totally denial that I had become this way. Side note: I hate who I am right now & am working on it. Anyways, he told me here and there over the past year not to complain so much - but it didn't penetrate in my dumb head; my mind was focused on school. I love him a lot and I thought he always loved me. He sent me a photo of a place he wanted us to live at one day, cutely, prior to my graduation. And he said he wanted a life with me always. When I graduated he made drinks and appetizers for my parents. Side note: I had a job lined up (for my favorite specialty, might I add) as a RN. I was in such a happy-high during graduation lol. A month later, I failed NCLEX. 1 week after failing, feeling devastated, he asked for a "break" (July 16th) so I could focus on myself and studying for NCLEX again and he could figure out himself. One week later I found out he was "in a relationship" with a random girl. I've wasted the last 4 weeks of my life crying and procrastinating to study. I'm so angry with myself because becoming a RN has been my dream (since I was 15) and this is all I've worked for. But my heart is torn apart. I feel like I ruined us & can't forgive myself.