Ready to Puke

[pagandeva2000]

I have been on vacation for this past week, and basically I am not ready to go back to work on Monday. I came to the realization that I really don't like working. Silly, I know, but I am tired of watching my back, seeing situations where nurses are trying to do what they can to give good care under challenging circumstances and administrators that have the intelligence of donkeys.

I really like being a nurse, teaching the patients, reading and learning different things to better comprehend and explain things to people. But it seems fruitless sometimes, because we are rushed. Also, there are more patients than I can count that do not take responsibility for themselves. That can be okay at times, because I can't force them, but I am tired of speaking to dedicated, but frustrated, tired and exhausted nurses whose paperwork has doubled, are still working second and third jobs to make ends meet only to be chastised and not gain support of the powers that be. Tired of attending meetings where these people act like leeches and dragging more out of us than what is available for ourselves to survive. I woke up this morning nauseous and had an upset stomach. It felt nice to remain at home within these walls of protection. Reading silly books and looking at nonsense television shows. Yes, I just don't want to go back. I will, of course, but sometimes, I think it is safer at home.

Anyway, just venting...

[VivaLasViejas, ASN, RN]

:icon_hug:Pagan,

Know how you feel. I'll hold the bucket and we can just make it a party.

I needed a break from bedside and I'm getting it . . . learning to use the new computer charting system and I'm going to be one of the trainers. So nice to leave at 4:30 in the afternoon. The emotional stress is gone for awhile. I lept at this opportunity to try something different. I was counting down the days until no more patient care, no more crap assignments because I'm not in the "in group" who gets the better assignments and gets to play on the computer all day without conseqence while I'm busting @@@ just get out 1 hour late.

Lots of good thoughts for you!

Cindy

PS - just found out most of our staff is looking to transfer out d/t changes (putting 2 units together that really don't go together). We all know who's going to get thrown under the bus when the inevitable bad thing happens.

Whew, this brings back some baaaaaaaad memories of my own bedside nursing days. It also reminds me of how grateful I am to have changed jobs recently......my husband still works at our old ALF and is about to get thrown under that same bus because I left. Seems the exodus of longtime employees picked up speed after I quit, and now they're in a world of hurt........so what do they do but abuse the remaining three veterans so that THEY turn in their two weeks' notice? What kind of business logic is that?

Thank goodness a spot opened up---well, it was sort of created---for him at my new place; he's so stressed out he's about to burst a blood vessel. TPTB at the old facility have been taking my departure out on him, and that's wrong on SO many levels that I really can't express the emotions it rouses in me.......at least, not without some choice invective thrown in.:argue: Jerks. Hmph!

Pagandeva, Cindy---I've been where you are, and you have my sympathies. Don't put up with it a minute longer than you absolutely have to. Life is way too short for bad jobs.