Quitting tomorrow, in panic

[~Shrek~]

I am going to quit my job tomorrow and leave nursing.

I don't feel comfortable going into detail here, but I feel like my employer was not treating me well, and what I was told when I was hired is not what I am actually getting. I also had what I think was a panic attack for the first time in my life today, and I am scared to continue onwards.

I am going to pursue further education, and I am going to search for another job. Financially, I am okay, but I don't have another job lined up.

I am so scared for my future. My job was wrecking my mental health, and I was going to try to persevere for at least a couple more months but I am so burnt out and exhausted that I can't. I spoke with my boss, and she can't change things. I also was nervous about appearing weak in front of her so I didn't disclose the extent of the issues I was facing (maybe I should have)?

What will come next? Did I ruin my life? Will my background checks say that I was placed on a "do not rehire" list at my hospital and people will think I was fired?

I am done with nursing, so i don't really care if I don't get another nursing job. But what about for other jobs down the road? Will I become a "high risk employee" and be branded as lazy?

[beachybutt]

Thank you for your words of encouragement! I have learned that I need to work somewhere outside the hospital setting with daytime hours. I knew this from the beginning but I gave into pressure from peers/ professors/ Internet saying that is impossible in this market or wrong for new nurses, but I should have listened to my gut instead of others.

You are not alone and we are in the same boat, my dear!! My first job as an RN was a horrible fit and my physical/mental health simply deteriorated. I knew during clinical rotations that the hospital wasn't the right place for me, but I ignored this when it came time to apply. I should have listened to my gut too. I'm pretty sure I was just blinded by all the excitement and pressure to get into a new grad program. I'm not sure where exactly I belong, but I chose nursing (and endured nursing school) to have options. And you have options too, so explore them!

Best of luck to you!!

[~Shrek~]

You are not alone and we are in the same boat, my dear!! My first job as an RN was a horrible fit and my physical/mental health simply deteriorated. I knew during clinical rotations that the hospital wasn't the right place for me, but I ignored this when it came time to apply. I should have listened to my gut too. I'm pretty sure I was just blinded by all the excitement and pressure to get into a new grad program. I'm not sure where exactly I belong, but I chose nursing (and endured nursing school) to have options. And you have options too, so explore them!

Best of luck to you!!

You you sound just like me!!!! I was so excited to get into a solid new grad program-- I was the first in my circle of nursing school friends to get a job-- that I didn't fully realize that it's not for me.

[prettyboyswag]

Run, run like the wind and never look back