thank you for your kindwords johnsavv, I forgot librium, that is a big medication. I feel awful too. several weeks ago, I was in daytime orientation, one patient complained he didn't receive 6 am medication, so I checked the MAR, I found out the night nurse did not sign on the MAR, I guessed the nurse gave the 6 am medication but forgot to sign, I told this to my preceptor, my preceptor felt the same way because nurses on the unit forget to sign all the time. then the patient complained to the doctor. the doctor asked me about the missed medication in the morning meeting, my preceptor said we would check if the medication been taken out from the armicell. we found out the nurse didn't give the 6 am medication, my preceptor asked me to give the miss does. that was the end of the stroy. I did not know the night nurse got writen up, and the nurse educator filled out the incident report for him. the night nurse thought I had big mouth, reported his mistake to the manager. In fact, I don't know we have to fill out incident report for miss does. this time he found I made a mistake, he wanted to take revenge on me, he filled out the forms, passed it through the manager's office door. then other nurse told him, if he reported me, my preceptor would also get in trouble since I was still in orientation. they called the security and opened the manager's office, took the incident report back. when I came back to work on tuesday night, they told me the whole stroy, said they covered me. but I decided to report my mistake to the management people. I want to be honest. I agree with you, we are humans, we do make mistakes, the most imporntant thing is we learn from that, and not make the same error again. I don't blame any one report my mistake to the manager, I am responsible for every mistake I make. if I do something wrong, please tell me face to face or report it to the manager, but don't do this little dirty things behind my back. I am going back to work tonight, I feel like I am going to have heart attack.
the relation with your colleagues is even more difficult than taking care of my patients.