I just joined because I will be starting the fall cohort at Baldwin Wallace ABSN in Ohio. I have been a Medical Assistant in pediatrics for 28 years and I will have a Bachelor of Science degree in Public Health from Kent this coming spring. (2 classes left).
So, my education and work experience has always been in healthcare....and I've always intended to get my RN, life just never lent itself to this until now. (recently divorced and my kids are all grown and on their own)
For the past few months I've been agonizing over whether to do a masters program of some sorts, or to get my RN. I narrowed it down to either PA school or taking a path to get CNP. I decided to go the later route because my heart is and always has been in nursing. I just don't feel the same respect and draw for the PA field.
One of my professors also had a lot to do with my final decision. Since I've worked in a public health related field for so many years (private practice and then school health), and I enjoy the public health education field, if I get my RN and decided to stop, I can continue on as a public health nurse at a higher level.
IDK why, but I am incredibly nervous about this. I'm overwhelmed at the idea of clinicals mostly because I know I do not want to work bedside. If I work public health it is in more of an educational, advisory role. If I go on to CNP it is in more of a health provider role. Diagnosing and treating outside of the hospital/care setting.
Don't get me wrong, I think bedside, long term care, ER, ICU etc nurses are phenominal....it is just not for me. I don't think I personally have what it takes to be a hands on nurse. I don't want that level of responsibility. If need be, I could handle peds because it is what I am familiar with. I currently do basic physical care such as G-tube, caths, seizure control, diabetes management, etc. Nothing incredibly involved. And I'm ok with that. As an RN I would be ok expanding bedside nursing skills because children do not intimidate me. Adults, thats another story.
Even just typing this I feel like a failure. But that is my reality. I want to work in an RN capacity, just not at bedside. Please don't slay me for this. Help me to be the best nurse I can be outside of that scope of practice.
Any advice, counsel, thoughts you have on the topic would be greatly appreciated.