It's not them who don't understand, it's you. You are choosing to be miserable and to slowly kill yourself because of a belief that you must continue to do a job that you hate... not one which you dislike or which isn't fulfilling or any of that... one that you HATE.
Nursing is not in you. You weren't a nurse when you were born, it is something that you chose to do, something that you were trained to do, and something which you are paid to do... it is something that you do, it is not you.
If you really have a servant's heart and derive fulfillment in a role of service then either pick a job that you don't hate which still provides that fulfillment or find another job and do volunteer work at a nursing home or an orphanage or at a homeless shelter or a home for abused women or... something.
Or find a nursing job that is free of the conditions that you hate so much.
You are literally choosing to kill yourself, albeit not quickly, but most assuredly.
Do something desperate to get out of the abusive relationship in which you're living.
It's your life, choose to live it well.
There were a lot of points in this post I agree with.
What struck me in reading the OP post was that much of the complaints were other peoples fault:
People are going to yell at you
You didnt want to be a nurse but your family somehow made you.
You're not a smoker but are somehow smoking.
You moved to Fl (a state that has a lower cost of living & therefore lower income - something that is easily researched online) but seem surprised you make less money.
You announce you hate your job but get annoyed when people tell you to leave it.
You hate nursing but some cant leave because its in youâ€ which makes no sense to me because while you may have the education, because (again) somehow your family made you be a nurse I dont really get that sense of you being driven to be a nurse.
Other people dont make life happen to you & at some point you have to take responsibility for your own decisions & actions. Which also tells me that you have to make your own actions to move forward with what will make you happy. There are jobs & careers that pay outside of nursing.
In spite of the inevitable comments about being a mean nurse (& yeah, I probably am), I'm actually saying this because I've been there. Not in nursing but in the 8 years I spent in various marketing jobs before I became a nurse. 8 years where I hated my jobs, hated struggling for money (especially with one boss who bounced our paychecks while he & his family drove new cars every 6 months), & yes... bored family & friends to tears with how awful my job was & how trapped I was because how else was I going to make a living?
You've spent 12 years in misery. Set a 5 year plan to move in a direction you want to go. Pay down your debt, live simply, research job & education options in a field you want to work in, explore entrepreneurial options in your chosen field. You may not wind up where you set out to go (I sure didn't) but maybe you'll be in a better place anyway.
At what point do you make a conscious decision to be happy? At what point will you take responsibility for who you are & what you do? I know the feeling of hopelessness in going to a job you hate but when do you begin to take charge of your own life?