Wow. This is a very trying time for you. Therefore I urge you to seek out therapy and do meditations for stress relief, self-confidence, self-esteem and PTSD. You can find them on YouTube. Also...
It is tough. I suggest the following: 1. Apply for jobs in Jersey City, NJ 2. Join the ANA & the AACN which will make your application look better 3. Do the free CEUS with AACN (shows you care...