I made an account specifically to respond to you. First of all, you did not let yourself nor your family down. The only way you could do that is to give up now. This may be a long shot, but, based on information given in your responses, we may have gone to the same school. Graduated June of this year. We have the same first initial and my last name starts with J. We had second semester together. I have a brand new Saunders book I haven't touched (hopefully won't need to, just took the exam today, eek!), and would be more than happy to do Kaplan with you. If this isn't you then keep on keepin' on! You got this!