Ruby... Thanks for your thoughts. Maybe you missed one of my previous posts. I know that I am not completely competent yet. I am constantly learning at my job. And like I've said, I bring my NICU handbook with me to work every day and educate myself as in depth as I can about each baby's condition. Trust me, I am doing my part to enhance my learning past what I learned in orientation... What my post is trying to say is that outside of my job, since I'm not in school, I don't have anything to do. Yes I could sit around and read from my handbook 24/7 even when not at work but the likely hood of me retaining that without having a baby to apply it to would be slim to none. So. I'm just trying to figure out what I could do outside of my job to keep me on my toes.