I graduated nursing school in December with my BSN. I was on the accelerated track and aced every HESI thrown my way with near perfect scores. Due to a paperwork mistake on befalf of my school, no one in my class received their ATT #s until about a month or more later. By this time I had started a new job (retail was killing me and I had bills to pay), which required a lot of education and training. I had moved from my home, into a place with roomates and incredibly annoying dogs. And the week of my NCLEX, my boyfriend (whom I live with) came down with one heck of a case of Mono Hepatitis. It got the point where he couldn't even feed himself. I had a lot of life going on around the time of my exam. Unfortunately, it got the best of me. I failed my NCLEX.
I am not someone who fails at anything and I take it very hard when I do. My family that was oh so quick to assure me that I would pass without thinking about it was shocked. Since my failure, I have not been motivated to study or re-apply for another test. I think I am too scared of failing again.
I need to know how to find motivation to get back on the horse. Daily I have loved ones and co-workers asking when I will re-schedule my exam. It is not a lack of a support group. I am living in fear of failing once again and each day I lose more of my knowledge that I worked so hard to obtain.