I would try another department maybe....ER may be a bit much for some new grads. Idk, just by reading your post, it sounds like a bit much for you. Personally, I look at nursing as a way for me to work towards my strengths and not my weaknesses. I'm stronger at following orders and caring out plans and I KNOW this. So I KNOW ER, critical care and cardiac are NOT areas for me. ;-) I work well with doctors and adult patients....so I gravitate towards those environments (LTC, internal medicine). While in nursing school now, I think more of my strengths are delegation and management of care. So when I pass my nclex RN I will look for maybe an ADON position or nurse manager. It's great for new grads to jump in head first if that's their desire...BUT we all must know when we began to jeopardize our patients. Because it's not about us, it's about them!
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