I've suffered with anxiety and depression for a very long time now, since my early 20's at least, and I'm now 33. I'm only in Nursing school, and we haven't had our first clinical round yet, but there's been something that's making me feel like I'm stuck in a box and I really couldn't think of a better place to ask than AN. So here goes; I need treatment for this, I've tried dealing with it on my own, and I think the added stress of school is making things worse for me. I'm not breaking down, but I'm starting to feel like I've got things "less handled" than before. If I seek treatment, and that treatment includes prescription medicine, will that haunt me down the road when I'm looking for a job? Do employers ask about your mental health? Does school typically ask before you start clinical?
I've tried doing my own "Googling" and a lot of the information I am finding is old. A lot of it also seems very biased towards just keeping it a secret and lying if you're ever asked. Is that the way to deal with something like this? Obviously I am not going to wear a scarlet letter "rx" on my forehead, however, I need this feeling of being boxed in to disappear. I know that the nursing profession is anxiety ridden. I know that it gets crazy sometimes and with staff to patient ratios being what they are in most places, the 12 hour shifts aren't always enough to get things done. I know nursing can be a crazy anxious career choice. But it is my choice. It's what I've dreamed of doing for so long. I don't mind the work. I don't mind the study, the lack of a social life, the lack of sleep, the lack of even finding time to pee without thinking of body parts and medicine and grams and liters and on and on. I really enjoy being busy, and I enjoy learning everything I can. I honestly don't know where the anxiety is coming from, seeing as how I don't think it's the homework and studying. Typically (and I know a lot of people are this way) it's from me not seeing how things are going to work out in my head. And I know that people really can't ever tell how things are going to turn up, but I'm not a "normal" person, I can't just shrug it off, I obsess over it, panic and freak and can't shut my mind off.
So how do I proceed? I know I need to get help, even if drugs aren't involved (which I'd rather to be honest) but I don't want this haunting me down the road. I don't want to be passed over for a job because I sought treatment for anxiety. What do you all think? Should I? Shouldn't I? What should I be preparing myself for in regards to my future nursing career? What would you do if you were me?