Hang in there new grad and all new grads!! Wanted to get to you before one of the old crusty ones picks you apart, makes you feel like it's your fault, and makes you feel worse than you already do! Hope I'm not too late! I'm not sure why some preceptors treat their preceptee's so poorly. I'm not sure if it's a power trip, understaffing that adds extra stress? There is no excuse for anyone to put you down in front of patients, that is beyond unprofessional! New grads and new hires are at the mercy of whoever is training them and if they have a chip on their shoulder, low self esteem and on a power trip, no preceptor training, or it's just their turn on the unit to train someone your training will be a bad experience. I've seen it over and over again. I'm the type of old crusty, don't feel like one BTW, that would grab the newbie and tell them everything will be ok, you'll get it, and you all will! Your compassion for the profession is there and it's refreshing so hang in there! It takes a good 1 1/2 years before you begin to feel like you've got it and your going to make it! You will always be learning and asking questions. The older ones are still learning and asking question too even though they'd probably never admit it. I've precepted many and it's not right that others seem to feed on the pain they inflict, it's a sick power trip. If you have no patients for teaching and nurturing a new nurse then don't do it! I think the ones that are criticizing anyone who speaks out about how tough it is for new nurses are the ones that have behaved this way their entire careers. It's sad we can't rely on our fellow nurses to nurture each other. Every nurse, no matter how old and crusty, has needed help at some point! I think maybe they've forgotten how terrifying and intimidating learning this profession can be especially these days. When they came out of school things were a lot different. Many patients were admitted just for tests and major surgical procedures went to the unit, you never saw TPN on a regular floor either. Patient stayed in the hospital a lot longer too and most of their patients were pretty stable and now they're all high acuity! The patients you have on a regular floor now would have been in an ICU. The older nurses were able to learn as things began to change. There were also a lot more CNA's that helped them as well, really miss them, so vital to the overall experience a patients has in the hospital and were another set of eyes and ears for the nurse! All I can say is hang in there and take care of yourselves. I'm hoping there are more forums for new nurses to get support from each other!! I think if anyone who wasn't a nurse and was thinking about becoming one read many of these posts would be shocked and many would not choose this profession that is suppose to be the epitome of compassion, nurturing, and empathy!