I just retired from Indian Health Service, which was the only workplace where I could contemplate finishing my career. Grateful and lovely patients and good staff to work with. I was an art major in my first college go around and now will be again. It takes courage to think of yourself in a different career than a nurse. I think it would be wise to use your degree in a related capacity like informatics, etc. And not to think of nursing as a calling is excellent advice. Take care of yourself first without any guilt and you’ll find your career path.