Luckily it was just the possession ticket. They tried to bust me for a DUI but I definitely had nothing in me and they refused to administer a breathalyzer or blood test when I demanded, do I did their stupid field test and passed.
My criminal lawyer says he will attempt to get the charges dropped. As far as the actual charges go, they haven't even charged me yet and I'm going to consult with my nurse attorney about when I have to report IF I get deferred judgement, which is the worst case scenario. I would have to report the deferred judgement in my state, unfortunately.
The only thing with my hospital job is I'm highly worried about the criminal side of things, like if they formally charge me (likely) and with me in deferred judgement. Like, will they be required to fire me if I have deferred judgement for a misdemeanor that will pop up in a background check. It's the only hospital system besides like two independent-but-crappy hospitals in about 45 minutes, so I absolutely want to avoid the "do not rehire" at ALL costs.
The good news is my hospital apparently has a facilitator for the state alternative to discipline program, and he is in HR. Apparently he's been through the program as well. In addition, I talked to the program director anonymously, and she encouraged me to report asap (NO thanks) even though I had a negative drug test. And she asked what hospital I worked at and eventually told me "oh that's very good they try to keep employees in their jobs."
But again, if there's any chance I'll be on the "do not rehire" list I'm out until I can get it expunged, worst case.
I'm trying my best not to worry, but as you can see, I'M CLEARLY freaking out and getting very specific. 😂
I keep telling myself whatever happens will happen. But I can control a bit of it, and that's what my lawyer is for. I'll definitely keep you all updated. I do have a psych history so I'm afraid they'll be like oh, look at you (even though mine is a bit complicated as I'm currently only diagnosed with autism and ADHD and I DON'T take stimulants). Basically all of my psych history is heavily tied to awful childhood experiences and my autism (anxiety, etc). My psych issues tend to mostly go away when I'm not around abusive people. But you know how the board is..
Nursing wasn't supposed to be the end of the road for me. I got into nursing for personal reasons but it's a good job to have when you are going back to school for what you really want to do, as I couldn't at the time. I'm just wondering if now is the time to cut my losses or if I should stick it out. I may want to go into engineering, so whatever happens, I don't want to just surrender my license or have a mark.