I would suggest you keep going. Maybe you are at the wrong facility, the wrong type of nursing, etc. This is one of the reasons I chose nursing - it is so diverse. If I don't like one area/facility, or I am not good at an area/facility - I just find another. Maybe you just need more time to hit your groove there. I would suggest that you be intellectually honest in your self-reflections - so if you identify a problem you have - you cited retention - be honest and own it - which you did - and you also addressed the possible solution but showing up early and checking the charts etc. So it seems you are committed and honest. Just keep those going - and try different areas if necessary, but I would hang in there and keep going. And in the end, if you finally realize this area isn't for you - then try another type of nursing. As far as you co-workers - they don't matter. If they are isolating you, not liking you, I would consider it their loss (assuming you are a nice guy of course).