I know a lot of you have said the first year is awful, but everyone's situation is a little different. I basically took the first job that was willing to hire me, which was also in LTC/Rehab. I did two weeks of orientation there which were worthless. My first day on my own was awful. I had no resources, nobody to ask questions to because everyone just ignored me, and my supervisor was not very helpful since she was a part time weekend supervisor. Well, I work on a weekday and it's even worse. My nursing supervisor is pretty worthless, since everyone is overworked nobody has a minute to spare to help answer my questions, and I've never felt so lost in my life. I feel that I can just barely pass medications to 12 (sick patients), let alone address their family's issues, and there's. At times I almost feel like I have to neglect some of my patients to get things done. At the end of the day, I get there early, leave late, and get nothing but med pass done.
I don't know when I will have a minute to have someone show me how to look up labs and such. I've already discharged two patients not knowing what I was doing. I personally feel that this facility just hired me because they needed a space to fill. I feel that I'm compromising patient care and although this is a learning process, my goal is to help people get better. I go home thinking and thinking, go to bed dreaming, and even on my day off I am taking this job with me.
I have a few options running through my head since I've always leaned more towards school nursing/1 on 1 nursing. I enjoy the counseling and teaching and caring for the individual. While my classmates have hoped and prayed to be in the ER or ICU when they left nursing school, I have had no interested in the "adrenaline" rush. Since working here full time is really taking over my life, I am wondering if asking them for something part time would be more suitable for me, while doing home health on the side (which is more counseling, educating patients, etc). I could also quit, if I feel this facility is not a good fit for me. The other option I have is working on a different unit like the first floor which is more orthopedic patients (and from the sounds of my coworkers, easier for a new grad nurse). However, I think because the first floor is easier, there is no available slots for me. I really am not one to give up something before giving it a try, but my sanity isn't worth any job or amount of money, especially if I'm not enjoying what I do. Any advice would be appreciated.